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I. had. no. idea.
I am so furious/sad/angry/sick that you were put by that by a person who should have been willing to defend you with his life to prevent harm coming to you.
I am so sorry.
You are wonderful and loved.
Thank you for sharing! I appreciate your frankness in sharing this story. I'm reminded of a Parade article: http://tinyurl.com/2dbpm7. The key for victims is *not* necessarily to forgive the abuser, but to forgive yourself. It is a powerful message.
I used to think the disassociates was better, made it easier to forget. Never in my wildest dreams did I think in my late 30's that wall would come crumbling down, because in the end it was still there waiting in the background of my subconcious.
I get it, you have to learn to love the person you are, to understand what happened as horrible and ugly as it is, was someone elses sickness. These days I like me as I am. Yes, the nightmares come, and I still get scared of what I see. But I'm still capable of love, compassion and yes, even forgiveness.
The thing of about being a victim, is someday discovering you are no longer one, your actually a survivor.
Well said and written. (Hugs)Indigo
You’re so right to have stopped hating. It eats at your soul like battery acid – and it erodes the good along with the bad until there isn’t a whole lot of anything left. It sounds like you are focused on healing and that’s fabulous. And you’re speaking up and speaking out. That’s fabulous, too.
You “get it” much more than you know.
I, too, cried when I heard Grace's keynote. It was if she was speaking right to me and no one else.
Much love to you. You are strong & brave. Thank you for sharing your story.
Thank you for sharing, I'm also glad that I'm not the only one who doesn't think hate is a waste of energy. I get it, tho I wish none of us had to.
I am still trying to sort through all my emotions from today - but thank you all for being so wonderful. I really appreciate it.
I too was profoundly moved by Grace's speech. I cannot yet put it into words, but I'm working through it. It's really nice to see someone on the other side. Thank you so much for giving me hope.
I don't "get it" at the same level you do, or others do. My childhood -- what I remember of it anyway -- was almost abnormally normal. But I've seen the effects, seen what kind of adults emerge from these nightmares, seen those I pitied, and those I've admired to the point of awe. Many of those latter ones have published stories here or in other similar outlets. And I find myself wondering, "How do you do it? How do you live in this world without hating everyone and everything in it?"
I suspect many of them have figured out what you've presented to us today. Assigning blame is not extremely useful. Assigning forgiveness most certainly is. Blamestorming manifests negative energy, forgiving, manifests positive. And since everything in the universe flows from high potential to low potential, focus on the positive goes with that flow rather than against it. It applies to electric current, heat transfer, fluid dynamics, and every other physical force. It only makes sense that metaphysical forces would work in the same way. And it's far easier and much less exhausting to swim with the current than against it.
For some, what you've said and shared here is obvious. Some have already learned it, some "just knew". Some have heard it but don't quite believe it. Some know it but don't have the words to express it. And for some this will be a revelation. For these last ones, I thank you. Because they need to know. They need to understand, to "get it". And because of your generous courage, they will have the chance to hear and see the words that could quite literally save their lives.
It always surprises me how this big world turns around and around and then I bump into myself in the most unexpected places. Thanks for this, Aimee (and Maggie.)
I wrote a post yesterday where I only mildly almost hint at the abuse I lived through. I didn't post it knowing it needs to be edited. And still I couldn't sleep last night. I woke in a panic and sweat three times afraid that I had actually hit publish instead of save. (I had to check twice.)
I want to be thick skinned, brave, and in full ownership of what has happened to me and sometimes I pretend that I am those things. But really I'm not. Some members of my family have started reading my blog and their inevitable hurt feelings and comments lashing out at me, maybe calling me a liar...I can see me crumbling underneath their thumbs.
I understand too, Aimee. I get it.
Here's to all the people who GET IT, but would rather not.. thank you for sharing your story.
Your post is so cool mainly because you have released yourself from the hatred you had, rightfully so, for your father. That must be liberating. I am only supposing - I have yet to be able to do the same. But, you give me strength and encouragement to self-reflect on the trap of unforgiveness.
Thank you for having the strength and courage to post. You build us up.
So glad you have men in your life that make Father's Day worthwhile.
You are awesome!
It's funny how things work out, huh Maggie? I really believe that. Thank you for including me today and for creating such an amazing site.