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Oral sexual contact B2 (at age 8)
Attempted intercourse B2 (between ages 5 – 7)
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B1 had no direct hands-on contact with me while B2 did.
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Clues sexual abuse was going on in childhood:
Frequent complaints of stomach aches
Low productivity in school: Special low Math and reading groups (K – 5)
Turn around in low school productivity when B2 moved out (end of 5th grade)
Speech therapy focused on lack of “TH” sound usage (the blended consonants represented the abuse and my brothers used this sound for taunting me in front of my parents.)
Evaluation for Special school district in 5th grade
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Unexplained bruises on my thighs
ER visit for vaginal bleeding at age 7 due to lacerations inside my vagina. SEROQUEL FOR SALE, My parents remember the ER visit and only now do they realize some of the missed opportunities to help me. At the time the abuse took place, my parents were dealing with a lot of their own issues.
I remember they took B2 to a counselor at age 15 due to a lot of trouble he was making in school. He had a lot of anger issues that have continued into his adult life. However, he has lived a very quiet, unaffected, successful life.
I feel like he took so much from me and got away with it, while leaving me holding the bag of abuse done to me, SEROQUEL FOR SALE. “She has always been overly emotional." “She is making molehills into mountains.” “She needs to forgive and forget and act like none of this ever happened for the sake of the family.”
My parents found out about the abuse when I was 16. My mother found my journals. I was very depressed at 16 … (actually I can’t remember a time that depression and distorted thinking has not been a part of my life). My mother’s response was a drunken rage and making fun of my journals. SEROQUEL FOR SALE, My father joined in when he came home. I really wanted to commit suicide that night but instead I shut up and submitted like so many other times in my life.
I am still in counseling and still struggle with all of my interpersonal relationships, depression, and sorted other problems. I am in charge of my own life and I know I can’t blame current situations on my past. However, I still find myself mentally crawling away from everyone to hide.
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Someone very close to me was abused in a similar way and my heart goes out to you.
As LR said, forgiveness is for you, not them. As I told the person I know, you are don't have to forgive them for what they did, but you have to forgive YOURSELF and allow yourself to be angry when you need to be, sad when you need, and happy as well and NOT feel guilty about how you feel.
I'm so sorry to hear you had to go through all this and that your parents weren't as suppostive as they should have been. Wishing you all the best for the future.
Anonymous, thank you for sharing your story here. I am so sorry that you've gone through what no one should have to endure.
I agree with Jennifer that you must keep looking out for yourself. You are stronger even than you know.
Going forward, I wish you peace and kindness in your life, and I will keep you in my prayers.
You are 100% not guilty for the abuse you suffered at your brothers’ hands. They are 100% guilty for everything they did to you. It is wonderful to read this story only in that I am happy for you. You found your voice in the healing process. Writing here at VU is not only good for your soul, but good for all the people who read stories and grow/heal/gain strength from them. You have given a gift to others while you tend to your own recovery. Blessings to you.
I hope that one day you can come to a point where you can forgive your family, but only you will know when the right time is for that. The best definition of forgiveness that I’ve come across is that forgiveness is giving up the chance to get even. That’s difficult to do, especially if you are still angry, and if you are still dealing with people who should be helping you but whose behavior is still motivated by selfish self-interests. Keep working on your recovery. You are your only advocate in a family that refuses to help you. Do what you have to do for yourself to keep your recovery on the right track. Please stick with counseling.
I'm so, so sorry that your family didn't do the right things to take care of you. And angry on your behalf that they *still* won't.
I hope you continue the hard, hard work of doing those things for yourself. Be proud of the strength it takes to do that, day after day.
Thank you for sharing your story with us. I hope this act of courage strengthens you in your journey.
It is okay to do what you need to do to take care of yourself.
I'm so sorry for what was done to you and its lasting effects. Keep counseling. Keep working. Stay strong. You are incredibly strong to have lived through it so stay strong.
You are very strong for sharing your story, thank you. I hope that the act of sharing will help you heal because none of this is your fault--the way you were treated is not right, and I'm so sorry you had to go through those experiences. You have a right to be hurt and you deserve more support. If your family isn't offering it, and it is more painful than helpful to be with them, I agree it is okay to pull away--you deserve better. I'm so glad to hear you are in counseling; I hope you continue to go and that over time it helps your desire to "crawl away and hide" diminish. Take care of yourself, best wishes for you.
thank you for sharing your story - you are so strong in discussing all the past pain. just wanted you to know that you are not alone, and that my heart goes out to you.
What a horrible list of encounters for you to be forced into. Others can rob us of so michand it can take years to get it back. Indeed this will be with you your entirer life. I pray you can learn to live beside it and not let it dedi e who you are.
You show great strength be telling your story. The people you should have been able to turn to for support were not there for you and I'm really sorry for that. No one should have to go through what you did. Please don't crawl into a hole and hide - otherwise your abusers win. You can be strong and rise above it!
Don't forgive and forget for their comfort.
If you find yourself in a place of forgiveness and forgiving your family will help You then do so.
Your Wellness your feelings are infinity more important.
I am proud of you. It gets better! Know that you only owe yourself forgiveness because you never did anything wrong.
Holding you tight sister!
Oh sweetie....like someone else said, forgiveness is not about pretending it never happened. That is a warped idea of the forgiveness I have been taught (mostly through church. Perhaps your family should try a different church.).
Stay strong and dont back down from the truth. Confront it head on. Ny prayers are with you, and I am sure I am not the only one.
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If your mother can't accept this, she's not a mother. She was clearly living in denial already when you were taken to the ER. It's not hard to put two and two together. Don't listen to that religious crap about forgiveness. She needs to read Matthew 18.
If your first brother is truly sorry, he would stand up for you to your parents and younger brother. If he doesn't, he is not taking responsibility, he's just feeling regret. That's not enough.
I hope God sends some people into your life who can be a real family. I'm so sorry for all your pain
You absolutely must just keep looking out for yourself. If your family continues to be a negative influence for you, it's okay to pull away. Just because you share DNA does not mean that you owe them anything. And it doesn't matter how they define forgiveness. They are wrong and you do not need to submit to their opinion.s
Forgiveness does not mean things go back as if nothing happened. That is reconciliation. Forgiveness is for YOU.... so you can go on with your life and not let the past control you. You're working on that, as you should be. Forgiveness does NOT have to lead to reconciliation with someone who doesn't deserve your trust. Forgiveness simply leads to you healing yourself.
Reconciliation is a completely separate thing, and in my opinion, there can be (and should be) NO reconciliation without the other person accepting the responsibility for what they did. You can let go of the anger and hate so it doesn't control you without subjecting yourself to someone who is a negative presence in your life.
You're on the right path... keep strong... and know that taking care of yourself is the right thing to do.
My heart goes out to you. Keep working to heal yourself and don't ever give up. It's so hard to accept that the person(s) who have wronged us take no responsibility for or minimize what they did. It is even worse when on top of it, others defend or minimize the actions. It leaves us wanting and it leaves a big space. But it is our decision to fill that space with the things we know are good for us. Keep fighting the good fight.