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I've certainly become intensely self-protective in the past 6 months. I'm so afraid I've lost my ability to trust anyone. I really don't think I'll let someone in that deep again. I've never experienced such a profound betrayal in my 42 years. I'm different now. Something inside me has changed for good.
I don't judge who you choose to love, how you choose to love them. I just hope the YOU are one of the people you are most passionate about protecting.
Thank you Anne & Danielle for your supportive comments. It has been quite awful, indeed. The worst of it is over, but the lingering effects are difficult, too. Trauma bonding and all that. I will continue to use my voice as well! I've been blogging quite loudly about all of this, and I'm not going to stop. I went anonymous on this site under the advice of my lawyer because of the details in this piece, but I've alluded to it again and again on my blog. I'll never be silent again. Thank you all for your wonderful words of kindness and support.
Thank you so much for sharing. Particularly coming from a non-traditional lifestyle. We should all be safe in whatever relationships we have.
@JuniperLimb Yes. Love should always be safe and, well, loving. Traditional and non-traditional lifestyles alike, we deserve to be treated with kindness and respect, especially in a loving relationship. Thank you for your comment and support.
"To use love, trust, and spirituality as weapons to control and hurt and destroy is the very definition of evil."
@BaltimoreGal It is indeed. I didn't know such cruelty was possible, and the insidious, cover nature of the bulk of it just makes it worse. Forcing the target to question reality on top of suffering the abuse. Thank you for your comment & support.
AnonOMG You're already quite self aware and have some support. Unfortunately this is when you learn who your real friends are. Don't judge too harshly, some people may be hiding from their own demons. But love all the more the ones who stand beside you.
@BaltimoreGal Agreed. I think that's what's happening. Thank you for the reminder. I'm starting to think that self-awareness is a curse! :-/ And I do love those who stand by me all the more. You do find out who your real friends are, no doubt.
Thank you for your comment and your support. It means so very much as I watch my own community embrace him and shun me.
Anonymous, I am so sorry for what you went through and for the pain your experience is still causing you. No one deserves to be violated in any way -- physically, emotionally, or spiritually.
Thank you for sharing your story here. It takes real courage and strength to speak out, and your story matters.
My hope for you is that you are able to heal, to find your lost hope, and to gain trust again. Peace to you, now and in the future.
SarahPMiller Thank you so much for your kind words of support. You're right. No one deserves to be abused and manipulated, assaulted and discarded.
It was six months ago today.
Peace to you as well.