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I am so sorry, Aubrey. I'm glad you are safe now. And no, it was never your fault.
Not your fault, not your fault, not your fault. You did not ask for this. You can open your door, let someone in and interact with them without them harming you. They took advantage of you. My heart goes out to you. You were doing the best you knew how with the information and power you had. No excuse for the other person. So sorry this happened to you.
Thankyouthankyouthankyouthankyou!!! I am so, so very touched by your comments. It's like each one is someone standing beside me, though in my "real" life, nobody knows this. I can't tell anyone. I breathe day by day and am rebuilding. I can't rebuild the old me, but I'm starting to rebuild a different, a new one.
I'm volunteering and working with horses. They've mostly been abused, it's a rescue. It does me a world of good.
I am lonely. :0) I have since moved out of that place I was sharing, but I have a co-worker who is my opposite: bubbly and irrepressible, and I love having her as a friend.
I loved seeing every single comment that said: 77% of rapes are by someone the victim knows. I heard it over and over again: a)You must be getting something out of it, or you'd leave. (He lived NEXT DOOR.) b) You must have wanted it, or you wouldn't have let it happen. c) You're just making a big deal of nothing. (by my ASOCSA leader) d) You're being too negative. (This by friends who I'd known for years. They all stepped away and stopped taking my calls.) ...and other things that stole my power away from me by saying that THIS must have been what I wanted, or I would have made it stop. He only raped me (used force) when I fought him. When I stopped fighting, he still held me down, but he kept on, saying how much he wanted me to enjoy it. Then I'd call a friend to see if there was help out there, and they just hung up.
So.
Thank you for being here. Thanks for your encouragement. I still have a lot of demons I fight nearly every day. A cute guy smiles at me, and a ton of issues jump to the surface and I have to push them down and just keep walking. But I do. :0) I do. ;0)
If I can recommend a book, I would like to say that I Never Called It Rape was a really, really good book, and one of the first things that connected the dots for me.
I hope I have more good days, more successes in my battles. I hope someday I will heal, if not completely, but enough to have grace and strength. I hope someday I will be able to trust, ...a little. :0)
I hope you do too.
Much love,
me
Hugs. I am proud of you! Seeing the triggers and replacing them is so hard, but it means you are getting better. Stay strong. Feel better. You are not alone.
Triggers suck. Replacing an old trigger with a friendly reach is a great idea. Keep on healing and growing.
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I feel so bad for you. Those memories come up and refused to be ignored sometimes. Stay strong and thanks for sharing.
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Thank you for sharing your story, Aubrey.
Aubrey, I'm sorry this happened to you. I am glad that you are safe now, and healing yourself bit by bit.
Thank for you sharing your story here. Sending peace right now, and for the future.
Aubrey, keep reaching toward your healing, and keep telling your story on the days you can. Each time you re-tell it you will feel your guilt and confusion disappear, and come to truly now, all the way through you, that this was neither your choice nor your fault. Sending you strength and love, SLM
"replacing the old trigger with a friendly reach"
You are brave.
I love your self-cheerleading. :)
I'm so sorry you went through this. You know, of course, that it's not your fault. The fault lays with him. Hold onto that.
I'm glad you're doing well now. Thank you so much for sharing your story. Blessings.
Thank you for sharing, please know that we stand beside you.
(hugs)
I'm sorry.
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