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Casey, I'm so sorry you had such an awful first experience. And of course it left its marks. But know that there are so many men and women who stand behind you and know this is never right, that it was not your fault, that what happened to your sister was not your fault, and that you will find your way to be free of the marks it left on your psyche. Congratulations on finding the strength to speak out and continuing to do the work of setting yourself free! With love and best wishes, SLM
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Thank you for sharing your experience. To say our first sexual encounters leave a lasting impression is a gross understatement. I'm glad you are healing and claiming victory. You are a survivor providing a powerful witness. Bless you, Casey.
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Thank you for sharing your story, Casey. I'm glad you can see how far you've come, and feel good about it.
Casey, I hope your ability to say "no" gets stronger every day and eventually your fear of not being as strong as you'd hoped will be overshadowed by how strong it was to tell your story here.
I am very happy to read that life is getting better for you. Congratulations on finding your voice, and sharing it here.
you are brave and strong and did what you could in that moment. So often, girls and women have experiences like this that a minimized or worse, ignored....I hope you continue to grow and discover your strength and wisdom...Peace to you.
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Casey, I am so sorry that this happened to you, and to your sister. It's good to see that you are healing, however slowly. I wish for you the knowledge that you can always say no.
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Thank you for your bravery. So hard to trust when so many in the world aren't trustworthy. I appreciate that you trusted us enough to tell your story.
Oh Casey, how horrible for you. Thank you for sharing this with us and good luck with your continued path of healing. Your words will make a difference...even if you never know it.
Oh Casey, so much of your story reminds me of mine. I really don't think you should feel guilty about what happened to your sister. But I know that it isn't always easy to let that go. (((hugs))) - Melissa
I've had similar experiences, and I kept quiet, too. I think still be a child relatively and being so inexperienced, I wasn't entirely sure how to defend my own boundaries. It doesn't make it any more right that those situations happened, but it's important to know that you did not make that situation happen.
I live with this, too. Thank you for sharing.
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Please know that we stand beside you, thank you for sharing.
Casey, I'm so sorry this happened, and that it has affected you so negatively. I hope the telling of it helps you somehow.
FWIW, I agree with your sister: you shouldn't feel like what happened to her was your fault. I know you do, but add mine to the voices that assure you that it isn't.
I think it shows remarkable self-awareness to recognize that your fear is about your own (perceived) inability to say no. And I thank you for sharing that, too, because it's a reminder for those of us with daughters (and sons) to make sure we teach our children that they have the absolute right to say no. Period.
Thank you for sharing your story.
It is absolutely not your fault. What happened to you was not your fault. What happened to your sister was not your fault. I'm proud of you for moving forward and speaking out.
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