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Wow. First, you are amazing! You ARE a worth loving, being treated with respect and most of all you are worth knowing that "that damn religion" was NOTHING that God would have accepted as acceptable. . . if that makes sense.
I too, came from a strict religious background. My father was a minister. As twisted as it may sound to me, after reading this post, I have become a minister.
I have pastored a church in the last three years where GRACE abounds. ALL people are welcome regardless of who they are or where they came from.
Because of my past, sexually abused by men in the church, I have learned that the more people speak up and speak out about "that damn religion" the more we can expose the real LOVE of God and let go of the religious demons that inhabit so called christians who allow this mess to go on.
I'm so glad to hear you got our of hell and wish you nothing but luck and happiness for yours and your sons' futures
Reading your story, I could literally see you taking step after step out of hell, one step at a time. I know from my own experience that it's a long road that requires many, many steps. I'm so glad that you were able to recognize the point at which you were not willing to live in hell anymore and you did it - you took that first brave step! I applaud you for continuing taking those difficult steps and it sounds like you are at last in a good place. Congratulations to you for your bravery. Bravo!
This is an amazing story of a woman finding her strength and reclaiming her life! Good for you for surviving, thriving and sharing your story!
You are an amazing person. Sometimes it takes realizing that our kids are in hell to make us do something for ourselves. I'm so glad you were able to.
Thank you for sharing your story. I am so glad you are in a better place now. I believe this story will touch many and help them to have hope that a better life is possible.
Thank you for your courage to tell you story. It has given me much to continue to think about. I see now, how lack of treatment has affected me to this day.
Once again thank you.
WOW! This is so familiar my hairs are standing on end. From the very religious parents to the horrendously abusive relationship that nearly left me dead. I'm nearly 6 years out of my hell. I'm still single, I still feel all messed up inside, but your story gives me a new hope. Life will go on, not all men are evil. Thank you for sharing.
Cat, I'm so glad you found your inner strength. I know it's cliche, but better late than never. Thank you for showing it is possible.
"That damn religion."
You have no idea how much that speaks to me. I am just now starting to realize how much the religion I was raised as has hurt me.
I am so glad you found freedom and you are thriving in it. Stay that way...
I'm so glad you spoke out. I'm so glad you found a reason to stand up for yourself and LIVE. Most importantly, I'm so glad you found a way to let love in your life. Good for you.
Two lines stand out in your story. “That damn religion” and “I had no treatment.” The second line stands out because I, too, had no treatment. It adversely affected the rest of my life. The first line breaks my heart because when the practice of religion causes the reaction that it did in you, religion is being practiced incorrectly. As a young lady, it sounds as if you knew neither Christian Love nor Grace. I hope that one day you will find a church that shows you both. Congratulations on escaping! Congratulations on finding you voice! Thank you for sharing your story here.