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I got goosebumps reading this line: "To this day, I’ve not told anyone who he was or what he did for me, because I don’t know if he’d be in danger of losing his job or not. But together, we worked out a plan, and a week later, I was three states away and haven’t looked back."
Thank God for some of the incredible heroes in this world!!
I've read 6 stories tonight, I think, and this will be my last for the evening because I'm so overwhelmed with emotion.
I've tried to use different words for every person to let them know that I have actually read their stories and see them as unique, but one word I've used often is brave.
You are brave!
I love that there is a happy ending!!
Wow - this blew me away. Good for you to get out of there, even better that you were able to let love into your life. Your kids must be proud of you!
Thank you so much for sharing your story, and a huge thank you for helping other victims of domestic violence.
I'm so glad to know that I'm not the only one that stayed in an abusive relationship for YEARS. I feel so stupid sometimes when I think about that, but then I remind myself that I was smart enough to leave.
I'm glad you're free physically and I hope one day you're free in every way. It is totally sad that your own name being called has to frighten you. All the best for the future. Eaton.
I'm so glad you reached that turning point so many years ago. You're an amazing role model for the idea that the only true escape from the pattern of abuse is through working on yourself. Thank you for sharing.
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Thankfully you got out before you completely snapped and killed him. I too thought of ways of killing my husband and making it look like an accident, I even cut the brake line in his car, or so I thought, what I really cut was just some sort of oil wire... Thanks for sharing
Good for you for not only having the courage to fight and get out, but for having the courage to LIVE again. To have the courage to choose your own happiness – despite everything you've been through – and to get married again and have more children couldn't have been an easy road at times. Much love to you and your family and all the woman you help through your volunteer work. And BIG, HUGE love to that police officer for helping you the way he did.
i'm glad your friend was there.... he deserves a special place in this world and beyond.
i'm glad you are a survivor, too.
thank you for sharing... it's hard.
The man who helped you plan to get out should recieve a metal. I am glad that you got out safely and that you are in a healthy and happy relationship. Thank you for telling your story.
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I just want to say that I think it is fantastic that you did something to help women that were in your position. You didn't just get out, you get people out. That makes you amazing!
You and women like you who are still in that place are why I'm walking in the Race Against Violence this weekend. So glad you got out, and that you're using your experience to help others. You rock, Cher.
No matter how many stories like this that I hear, I will never stop being moved by them. You are a very brave woman, Cher. Very brave. I'm so happy you got out and are now helping others. Amazing.
Thank you for telling this story. I'm glad you found the courage to leave and the knowledge to not let it happen again.
Thank you for sharing your story hon. I'm one of those woman who not unlike you felt she love was meant to be a fist. I'm also a child of sexual abuse.
I know all too well what happens when you look back, the irony is it's one of the first things they tell you in Domestic Violence shelters, is that quite a few woman do go back. We all say no way, I'm done while in the safety and confines of shelter. Quite a few of these woman don't know how to live without the violence, safe is unfamiliar territory for them and just as terrifying.
Perhaps the threat is there if they leave...however I would like to strongly add they have a chance of dying IF they stay as well. It wasn't the leaving that almost cost me my life, it was the staying. I'm also a volunteer at my local SOS shelter. Some how women are more likely to listen to someone who's already been where they are. It's my way of taking my life back, one piece at a time. (Hugs)Indigo
I've heard stories just like this more times than I can count. Only the details change. And every.single.time it baffles me that someone can be so inhuman to a person they profess to love.
Whatever it took to get you out of there, I'm glad you found it. And grateful to you for letting someone else know that this is not okay, that you deserve better.
And I hope eventually you'll be able to hear your name without flinching.
Cher - it took so much strength to get out and you did it - but more than that you are helping others - Bravo to you for your courage and strength!
It is amazing how much strength can come out of so much pain - thank you for writting and sharing your story.
SO happy that you got out and were able to find out what normal really is. (And it ain't just a town in northern Illinois.)
Bless you for continuing to help others, both in your work and by sharing what is no doubt a very painful testimonial to why no one deserves to live in violence.
Your story is bound to strike a chord with someone who desperately needs a message of hope and survival.