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I’ve spent many years since then trying to understand, to help others, myself. I got an Ivy League graduate degree, I started a non-profit for at-risk girls, I became a rape crisis counselor. I think of myself as a survivor, yet I still can’t shake some of those doubts, those awful feelings. I have been in counseling for years but still suffer from sporadic severe depression, and even ended up in a abusive marriage. BUY CIPRO NO PRESCRIPTION, I lost my child to my abuser because of my depression, there was no way I could prove his abuse, but he was able to get the judge to waive my HIPPA rights and show my medical and therapy history. He was even able to use my personal journal in family court. He really crushed my feelings of being able to speak out, to speak the truth. But I am writing here because I still believe that my voice is valuable, no matter how he uses my past against me.

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JuniperLimb 9 pts

Your voice is so very valuable. Thank you for using it to speak out. I wish you continued healing.

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SarahPMiller 17 pts

Connie, I am so sorry that you went through all of this. My heart aches for your years of pain and suffering. You have amazing reserves of strength, and I thank you for sharing your story here, because it is important. You voice is valuable. Your voice is valuable!

I wish peace and healing for you, now and in the future.

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