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51 comments
Kay
Kay

Megan, I am SO glad that you shared this here.
Voicing it, writing it, takes away some of the power it has over you. You don't have to like the words (I don't either) but that doesn't mean they aren't true.
You've come so far from that little girl that you were - your strength is amazing.

Kate
Kate

Megan, so much of your story is similar to my own. Thank you for being brave and writing it out for us.

You are worthy.
You are a beautiful person.
What happened to you was wrong, but it was not your fault at all.

You are a strong person and I am sending you a warm hug & my admiration.

I'm so sorry you were hurt and betrayed so deeply by those who should have loved and protected you.

dorothy
dorothy

Megan
I really appreciate your sharing this! I am glad you found the strength to write it out. I've got to say you are the first person I have ever read that has a similar background, not that it is a good thing because I wouldn't wish it on anyone. However, it does make me feel ,for the first time, that I am not alone!

I identify all too well with keeping secrets like these and feeling afraid to tell for fear of punishment. I also understand the love that is still there.
It is a long, rough road and I wish you all the best!

Another Suburban Mom
Another Suburban Mom

Megan, my heart truly breaks for you. Hang on and tell your story do what you need to do to reach that healing that you must have.

Fran
Fran

Megan, Thank you for sharing this with us. You are blessed and you are a blessing. You were molested. You were abused. It has affected you but you have shown that you are strong and brave, capable of overcoming.

I'm filled with joy that your voice speaks out for others to "see the light." Here, yes - but even more so in "No Place Like Home." Keep up the good work!

Joy
Joy

Thank you for sharing your story.

ChurchPunkMom
ChurchPunkMom

thank you so much.. all of you.
your words mean so much.

Rachael
Rachael

You are not alone. So many people don't even realize that they have been molested, abused, that they've been raped or are in a domestic violence situation until they tell someone else and that person is shocked. It happens all the time, unfortunately. I'm so glad that someone finally told you, and that you've been able to find help and support in your life. I'm so sorry you needed to.

TigereyeSal
TigereyeSal

I'm so sorry. Your story hurts and nauseates me; I suspect there is a little resonance underlying that for me. Thanks for sharing.

Anne Mahoney
Anne Mahoney

Thanks for sharing your story. You are very strong to do that. It wasn't your fault! Keep telling yourself that until you believe it. You were betrayed by those who are supposed to protect and care for you. That's hard to come to terms with, but it's important to accept, so you can stop blaming yourself and move forward. You have been strong and a real survivor. Now make sure you find and develop a good equal relationship that really lets you be yourself and brings you the love you deserve and enables you to give the same kind of love. You can do it.
Anne www.equalcouples.com

Kristen
Kristen

There are no words to heal the broken places.

All I know for sure, as I read your story, is that even if you don't feel it's so - not yet - is that where we break, we're stronger in the broken places. That you have gone on to become a wife and mother and break the cycle of violence make you exceptional - make you MORE than exceptional, since you would be so even without the pain.

Please know how much I respect you, how fond I have grown of you as a friend, a woman, a mother, a person to whom I look for... a lot of things. I know that might surprise you, since we haven't known each other long. An open heart, though, knows a lifeline when it sees one. You've been climbing a lifeline out of this hole for a long time - thank you for your bravery, for the good example of your life, for the love this world would be so much dimmer without.

You already know that only you can heal yourself; one can't look to the abuser for healing or closure (if there even is such a thing). I'm so proud of how hard you work every day to do just that.

truly,
Kristen

Emily R
Emily R

oh, i want to weep for you, who carried the weight of such a family

Sunny
Sunny

Thank you so much for being so courageous and sharing your story.

Jennifer H
Jennifer H

I hope you'll keep telling your story, keep writing it, until the very last word is out. It takes as long as it takes, and this is a very brave and strong step you've taken here. It breaks my heart to hear all you've gone through, but I hope it helps to hear the comments in this place and to know that you're not alone. And that so many of us understand.

Irish Gumbo
Irish Gumbo

Brave.
Strong.
Beautiful.

That took grace and courage, and thank you for posting it. You did a big, good thing...and i bow to the divinity within you.

Peace, kiddo.

IG

Casey
Casey

I'm so sorry for all you have gone through, you are so brave for telling your story

Mr Lady
Mr Lady

Awwww, honey. I'm so sorry for all of this. Thank you for sharing.

NGS
NGS

It was brave of you to write all that down. I can't imagine the pain you live with day to day. I'm sorry you had to go through all of that.

I'm very happy that you have a loving husband who supports you and all you've been through. I wish you continued peace and love.

Jennifer
Jennifer

I'm so sorry you had to endure all that. Thank you for sharing your story!!

Lillian
Lillian

Thank you for having the courage to share your story.

Maria
Maria

I'm so sorry, Megan. Thank you for telling your story.

Sarah
Sarah

I'm so sorry :(

cindy w
cindy w

I'm so sorry for everything you've been through. Big hugs to you, lady.

Nicole
Nicole

You’ve shown an amazing depth for compassion and a boundless heart for love by being able to forgive your family – and try to make a relationship with them work. You’re a much bigger person than I ever could hope to be! They don’t deserve you. (I hope they know that.)

It looks like your story has a happy ending though. I saw that your husband commented. Sounds to me like a guy who loves you very much and knows what he’s got. I can’t blame him for feeling conflicted about your family; he loves you in a way they can’t fathom.

Kudos to you for standing up and speaking out. I truly appreciate how hard it is to dredge it all up and then, to read what you wrote. Your story is bound to strike a chord with others so you’ve done some good for you and them. Wishing you peace and happiness.

pamela ~ the dayton time
pamela ~ the dayton time

You are brave and strong. And I'm in love with you.

The best part? You have stopped the cycle. You have planted your feet and said "NO MORE!"

And that, my dear friend, is power.

Petra aka The Wise (Young) Mommy
Petra aka The Wise (Young) Mommy

Megan, thank you for sharing your story to hopefully help other women who have been through the same thing and need the inspiration to talk about it. You have inspired me. Maybe I will share my story someday...

Lisa @ Unfiltered Insanity
Lisa @ Unfiltered Insanity

Megan... I've had the distinct honor and priviledge of becoming a friend with you over the past 9 or 10 months and you have trusted me enough to share this with me before. Yet, I'm still crying as I hear it all again. I'm especially tearful at the outpouring of love that these amazing people, these other survivors have for you and eachother. You may have finally given me the courage to write it all down. I know you've asked me to submit before, and you know how hard that is.

You are the most giving person, the most generous with love and life. I find this amazing because of everything you've endured. You're getting a big hug from me the next time I see you!

Your friend

melissa
melissa

it is so horrible when people have to endure abuse of any kind. i'm so sorry that you had to deal with that. and i'm impressed at the strength and courage it must have taken to write this. to be able to be honest with the internet AND yourself.
good for you!!

MrsMessiness
MrsMessiness

Megan - you are so brave and so strong. Thank you for sharing this - I pray that getting it out will bring you peace.

Beautiful Wreck
Beautiful Wreck

Megan I am so sorry for all that you have been through. You have definitely walked through the fire of abuse and have the scars from it. You are a brave and strong woman.

Twenty Four At Heart
Twenty Four At Heart

I love you, but you already know that. You are SO BRAVE for telling your story. I've been thinking long and hard about whether or not I have the strength. I imagine it's healing to write it and tell it. I've always admired you, but now even more so. What a strong person you are! Sending big hugs your way!

Wendy
Wendy

Megan. I used to think I invited my brother to come into my room late at night by leaving my feet uncovered.

Your brother was bigger than you, and when you don't have support from your family, when you're scared of their anger, you can't tell.

To this day, my mom says things like "We moved to Florida because of all that shit with your brother." DSS wanted my parents to make my 16 yo brother live with her parents. Yeah. It makes me feel great.

You lived through this, sweetie. And most importantly, you learned. Did you know your tweets to me when I'm losing control of myself with my kids are what keeps me calm? Thank you. {{hugs}}

Mojo
Mojo

Megan, you weren't simply molested and abused. You were betrayed. Betrayed by people you should have been able to trust. Betrayed, in a way, even by those who aided you. Your parents, your siblings, even the family across the street who let you hide out at their house. They sheltered you, but did they do anything to stop the cause? When the police found you at 14, They too let you down. They forced you to make a decision no 14-year-old girl should have to make.

Not "horrific"? I beg to differ. No child should live with that much fear, especially not in her own home. Not "earth shattering"? I think if you read your own words, if you look around you you'll see that while the physical earth is still on its axis, your world has always been scattered pieces of what it should have been. And to some degree it still is. Could it have been worse? It could have been more physically damaging, that much is certain. You could have had more serious injuries, yes. But it could not have been "worse". Or more "horrific or earth shattering". Because there are no varying shades of black.

But the helplessness? It's a little less crushing, a little less suffocating than it was. You came here, you told it all. You put it in front of the entire world and guess what? You're still standing. No Great Hand of Doom has come down to smite you. And that friend of yours -- the one who first put the words to it that you didn't want to hear -- I want to be first in line to shake his hand. Because he's the one that made it okay for you to spill it, to purge your soul of the festering secrets it had kept for so long. He gave you a great gift. And I'm glad you passed that gift on in your story, because it tells the ones who come and read that it only takes an audience of one to generate enough power to begin the process.

Thank you Megan. For all those little girls hiding behind flimsy bedroom doors trying to make themselves big enough to keep out the demons on the other side. For all those girls who "don't really want to but are afraid not to". For the teenagers who aren't sure if it's "bad enough" to tell someone. And for the women who have kept the secrets of these girls locked inside of them for years. Thank you for the fearlessness you've shown in telling them they're not alone, and they're not at fault. And for telling them that yes, it is bad enough.

I hope that getting the story out here in this forum has given you what you need to begin to free yourself from the chains of what was. Because you deserve that chance, that freedom. And nothing less. So take the comfort that has been and will be offered in these comments. Keep it with you in the times when you doubt. And never, ever forget that what you read here doesn't go away when your story falls off the front page of this blog. The support you find here is yours now and always.

mmccubb
mmccubb

I pray that telling your story helps release some of the pressure you likely put on yourself. You are a strong person to have made it through this and have the wonderful family that you do.

I admire you and your awesome talents.

God bless.

Tatiana
Tatiana

You are so strong for sharing this with us. I'm astonished that you still have a relationship with your brother and I think that speaks a lot to how much people can grow, change, and hopefully improve themselves.

Momo Fali
Momo Fali

I am so sorry for what you've been through. It sickens me. Thank you for sharing this. Who knows how many children you have helped today because you made their parents more aware.

mommymae
mommymae

you are so brave & so strong, megan. i can't even imagine what you've been through & you have come out of the other side with a great family of your own to lavish love upon and teach them how to love. hugs to you today.

SP
SP

Megan, I am so sorry for what you went through. It *is* horrific and earth-shattering.

Thank you for having the courage to speak out here. I wish you much healing for your wounds, and peace in your heart.

Tracy @redvu9395
Tracy @redvu9395

Megan, you have all my love. Thank you for sharing your story, I wish it wasn't yours to tell.

MG @ MommyGeekology.com
MG @ MommyGeekology.com

I am so saddened to hear that you were hurt by your family in this way. I am glad that you've found some peace with your brother, though I will pray for his family...and for him. From your story here, it seems that he still needs some more help understanding and controlling his anger and depression.

Thank you for sharing your story, not only because it is important and because YOU are important, but also because it shows a very different side of domestic violence, a side that most don't always immediately associate with domestic violence situations. We hear so often about the woman/mother with the abusive husband/father.... this is a different tale, and no less important for it's differences. Thank you for giving these survivors a voice.

melissa
melissa

I had to close my eyes to hold back tears. My heart is aching for you. I don't know you , but I'm so proud that you spoke out.

Only Aman
Only Aman

I can post whever I want because I am her husband...
First, I want a pizza!
Next, Everyone gets free passes to a day spa...

Oh wait, this isnt a ransom...

What i was going to say was:

When we first started dating and I heard these things, i was a teenager and didn't really know what to say, but I thought for sure that her family, knowing who they were and how they acted, knew about the situation and dealt with it accordingly... anyways... it makes it hard to talk with my in-laws... when she tried talking about it to them, they doubted her and made her feel unloved, and she still loves them.

All of your comments are obviously out of love and the support you give to one another is amazing!

Send nice thoughts to her today!

-Aman

FreedomFirst
FreedomFirst

Wow. Your story gives me the chills. It's so scary to realize how easy it is for a young child to be manipulated. As a parent you never want to think they are really that vulnerable. I understand what you mean about loving your family anyway; my family never hurt me quite like that but my mom did make a lot of mistakes. Ones that have had far-reaching and serious consequences. She's asked my forgiveness many times, and she has it. There are other people I would like to forgive, if they ever acknowledge their mistakes. I'm not holding my breath though.

I will be praying for you and for your brother's family as well. I hope you all find peace and healing by God's grace.

Mr. Nuggets
Mr. Nuggets

Megan,

Very powerful story! Would it be weird for me to say this is beautiful?

Beautiful because you told your story; because you recognize the abuse for what it was.

Beautiful because it will serve to help others who have been through similar and, unfortunately, not uncommon experiences; because of the courage it is taking to tell your story.

And now I am at a loss for words. I cannot tell you how much I appreciate what you wrote here. If I can put words at some point to what I am feeling right now I will comment again.

Don't worry, it is ALL good. You are an inspiration!

nic @mybottlesup
nic @mybottlesup

oh megan... my heart hurts for you, but rejoices at the same time because you spoke out.

you are invincible.

MK
MK

I'm always amazed by the posts here. The stories, to me, but the LIFE to the writer, seem beyond comprehension but of course we know it happens all to often to so many people. Megan - I hope you find peace today.

Corina
Corina

I am so sorry for all that you have endured. Tight hugs. My thoughts are with you. Thanks so much for sharing your story.

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