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My heart aches for you for the crap you went through, but is also joyful that you've gotten you and your children out and found yourself. Congratulations on finding your voice.
Oh wow, Diane, this is the kind of story that I read that makes me both sick to my stomach about what happened to you and so immensely proud that you have come out the other side of it. And given yourselves and your children a different life. I can't imagine the fear or the triggers. But I can imagine how hard it was for you to speak at first and then how little, by little it got easier.
And yes, now you can help others. And thank you for doing that and for sharing yourself here. Many blessings.
Your story is much like mine, except I had no children. How these guys manipulate us! What particularly resonated with me is the switch from "You're so smart and I cherish you" to "You're a stupid piece of shit." Same happened to me...And yet we stayed... But not for ever, right?
I''m so glad you found the EXIT from that nightmare and found real life, real love and real respect for yourself. You deserve it. We all deserve it.
Thank you for sharing and inspiring others who may still be living that unreal reality.
I have told you before and I will keep on saying it - I am so proud of you and what you have done with your life and your children. I hate that I was out of your life for so long but I understand why and I wish that I had been able to do more for you back then. You are one of the strongest people I know and I'm proud to have you as my friend. I love you Di.
Diane, you are truly courageous. I wish I had known how much pain you had to go through. You inspire without even knowing, Continue your education, because no one can take that from you, follow your spiritual path, because it will give you strength, and reach to your friends and family for support because you will give them strength. I admire and respect you more than you know. If there is something I can do please do not hesitate.