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I wanted to hate him and hurt him but realized that the only way to be free was to let it all go. When I defriended him I felt strong. The past was the past, and my mouth wasn’t covered anymore.

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Dorri Olds is a freelance writer, Web designer and social-media consultant. She tweets as @DorriOlds..

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