Erica speaks out at VIolence UnSilenced

July 17, 2012 | rape, sexual abuse, survivor story

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My sister and I finally went to the right people and now, two years into court (and bargaining what the pain measures up to in jail time) we are going to see him be sentenced to 9 years, 7 months. I don't for one second think that is enough time, but it will be a great day when he's off the streets. I'm having a hard time working on a letter to read at the sentencing but I will find the words I didn't have before.

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Redneck Mommy 10 pts

Thank you for using your voice to speak up about what happened to you. Your strength is amazing, Erica. Keep shedding light on your darkness. The sun will find you. I wish you peace.

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Skaft 6 pts

Your words and courage will continue to shed light to others! Continue to be brave and stand up for yourself and millions of others!!! You are amazing, most abusers do not ever get what they deserve. In my eyes none of them really get what they deserve, and that is to have the same horrible acts they have committed done right back to them. I wish you peace and all the strength in the world to get away from people that will cause you harm.

Red

I'm glad you finally said something and are getting some justice. My mom is a weak woman too and pretended she didn't know what was happening with my step-father. It took me eight years to confront her and she still denied it. I don't speak to her anymore--I hope you keep the hurtful people out of your life so that you can continue your journey forward. I never went to the police but the bastard killed himself last year and I hope he went straight to hell.

JuniperLimb 9 pts

You are very brave for speaking out. I pray you find the words and find healing.

barryslizzy 5 pts

Erica thank you so much for sharing your story. My heart goes out to you and 40 years after my abuse I still wake up screaming, crying and terrified. BUT you are standing up for yourself; you know to speak up for yourself; you know you only deserved healthy love. I still face my demons but strong, courageous smart girls like you help me. So, for that thank you. You and your sister are in my prayers. Healing hugs to you.

Jackie

I'm so sorry for everything that was done to you. Thank you so much for telling this here. I think you're brave and amazing - you have a great life ahead of you and you will find ways to heal and to do and be what you want. I absolutely believe it.

FGHart 7 pts

Erica, Thank you for speaking out and sharing your story here. You are very strong and very brave. I am praying for your continued healing. I trust that your future will be blessed by the enveloping presence of those who love you.

schmutzie 6 pts

Too many people think this kind of sexual violence is rare when it is not. Thank you for sharing, Erica.

krista

the feelings might always be there, but, girl...you aren't a victim. that's the difference. i mean, you're going to court! that's huge! don't negate the absolute courage and strength it takes to stand up for yourself in front of your abuser. i never had the strength to go to court. i still don't think i do. and i consider myself pretty damn strong. you, lady, are an inspiration for so many others who feel abandoned and betrayed. and you'll get there - to that place where you won't feel as though you're in constant terror. writing this letter is a step on that path. because telling your story means it doesn't fester inside you anymore. you can release it. you can let it go. it will never go away completely. but you'll get to a point where you realize that it's okay. you will. i promise.

Jocelyn 6 pts

Erica - you did it. You stood up for yourself. It will get easier the more you practice. You just haven't used that "muscle" enough. You are a very courageous woman. Thanks for sharing your story. It took me a long time and a series of repeated "failures" to stick up for myself too. It is a habit that has to be learned. You and I were never taught how to create safety for ourselves so we taught ourselves. You deserve love, kindness and respect - settle for NOTHING less. You may be surprised to learn there are wonderful people around you that you never saw before. Good people exist! I wish you more blessings than you can count!

Erica, I am so sorry you have had to endure such trauma. Thank you for sharing your story and thank you for pursuing it through the courts. God bless you!!!

SarahPMiller 17 pts

Erica, I am so sorry that this happened to you and your sister. No little girl (or grown woman, for that matter) should have to go through that.

I hope you both can find some help in your healing. It's clear you have the courage to do the hard work -- after all, you spoke out here and that takes guts.

Peace to you, now and in the future.

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Sheron Mbl Pigot

I dont know what to say. My experiences are nowhere near as bad as yours. All i can think is 'i hope you feel safe now'. I believe also that by writing a book about it, it would be cleansing and self-educational. It could help others and open it up to the world so there'd be no more of these horrible secrets!

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The road is long and at times, very difficult, but the worst IS over. Keep your head high & your eyes up & always remember that you're NOT alone! Your healing has begun! =)