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Thank you for sharing this. You are so strong.
Thank you for sharing your story. I am so sorry this happened to you.
The scariest part for me is the lack of logic, and it seems that's one of the hallmarks of an abuser... There doesn't need to be a reason for any of the things they do, and their actions are often completely out of proportion to any event. It's so scary hearing of this happening to you and your children. It is NOT normal... it was abuse. You were right to question it!
Thank you for sharing your story. It's brave people like you who force the world not to look aside when something seems wrong.
I am in awe of you. I am so thankful to read that you left him. You are an amazing woman to have been able to endure his abuse and be able to leave. I'm so sorry for the losses in your life. I'm so glad that you and your children are away from him and that you can begin to heal. You are so strong and are an incredible mother. I wish you peace and calm and to never have to experience such pain again.
I just don't get why people have to be so demeaning to someone. It's a real shame. Thank goodness you realized this, many people don't. You are a survivor and you should be so proud.
So nice to see you writing here. I'm proud of you for writing this. You're stronger than you know.
Gwendomama, you've said that only now are you starting to feel just a little bit strong... but I suggest you keep in mind this one point, for those days when you don't feel strong at all: you were strong to withstand that without succumbing, you were strong to raise children despite the potential for self-implosion, you're strong for leaving and staying away, and you're strong for writing these words.
To other women, who might be at the beginning of their journey, you're made of iron.
Thank you for sharing. My heart hurts for the you that you had to be.
I am so so sorry for your pain. You love your children. You are a wonderful mother. He is wrong in everyway to use control and power over you.
You are so brave to be honest about what he is doing to you.
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Gwen, I ache for what you went through.
Thank you for sharing your story here. Thank you for enduring and surviving. I don't know you, but I honor your words nonetheless.
it's not your fault. it never was. you can't fix him. you can't make him change. you can only get away and protect yourself and your children. i hope you are safe now.
Oh Gwen.
I'm so sorry. xoxo
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I want to thank Maggie for having the generous vision to allow us to speak out. The response is so much better than living in 'fallout' which is all many of us can do....for months. For me it's been nearly a year since I was attacked and left him. Nearly a year since he tried to kill me. And only now am I seeing the clouds parting a bit. Only now am I feeling even a little bit strong.
Thank you, Maggie, and thank you to all the commenters who found time to offer encouragement. I am warmed....do feel it.
Thank you for sharing your story. You are so brave!
HI,
I have been to your personal blog quite a few times and left a few comments there, and I am so glad to see you have joined this forum. I know you have lived through much and survived, and I think you will be an inspiration for many.
I admire the courage it takes for you to keep talking, and teaching, and trying to make other women aware of the fact that they don't have to live with and live through abuse. Bravo, and keep talking.
I wish I had the answers too. I don't. But you're strong, and you'll stay strong...and the fact that you could walk away....that's the biggest proof. (((hugs)))
Bless your brave heart.
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Sharing your story will make a difference for a lot of other women. Thank you for your courage and your honesty. xo
PS - This website is a gift to the women of the world.
I was just reading your blog and I am in awe of your strength. I am so sorry for the loss of that beautiful baby... I am sorry for the years you were told you were less than you are... I am sorry for all of it. You are worthy of love and peace. You are beautiful, strong and courageous, and your children are so fortunate to have you as their mother. Thanks for sharing your story. Keep breathing... you are worth it and so are those beautiful children of yours!
Thank you for sharing your story. What an amazing mother and woman you are!
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I read your blog, and I am always amazed - all the kid stuff you have gone through - must have been extra brutal, going through all that grief with the abuser at your side, questioning your mothering.
You are a GREAT mom. You so did the right thing, getting them away from him.
Thanks for being brave enough to share you story
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Thank you for sharing this. I pray for your continued healing.
OH goodness....thank you for sharing, and keep on fighting. You deserve better and so do your kids. You know it and they do. And so does he, that's what he is afraid of. But that's not what matters. YOU DO. You matter a hell of a lot.
Keep fighting. For you and for your children. You're worth it. You Are Worth It.
Some abusers know how to abuse without leaving visible bruises. Or they push you down the stairs and say, "I didn't break your arm; the stairs did." They convince themselves that they're not actually hurting anyone that way. We can't make sense of it because our minds don't think in the twisted, sick ways that theirs do. Take care of yourself - you are a strong woman.
I'm just so sorry. My heart hurts for you. Sending you love and light.
I am so sorry. You are a fantastic woman, mother and survivor. I hope telling your story helps you find peace.
I am so sorry. You are very brave for sharing this.
The power they wield, these abusers, is the power of convincing thought. Attaching their evil tentacles to battered bodies and fractured self-esteem, they slice with 'kindness' and destroy with violence.
You never stopped asking questions, you never stopped thinking for yourself. Even through the obscuring haze of fear and torment, you still refused to be silenced.
I am in awe of your strength, your courage- and your refusal to give up. In sharing your story today, you've graciously let us be a small part of your survival. Your escape. Thank you for this. For being the wonderful, courageous Mother that you are.
releasing your words and your story just shows how truly powerful you are as a survivor, mother, woman.
i wish you peace in your continued healing and survivorship.
Gwen just keep fighting. I love you. You're an amazing mother. And very brave.
my ex used to do the yelling, oh the yelling. That calmed. Then one day, we were fighting, as always, and he pushed me down, and started to kick me, over and over.
he said he didn't worry he'd hurt me cause I was big enough to stop him.
It's never ok. Ever. And the yelling, never leads anywhere good.
Thank you for your bravery.
I read your blog. Your story is painful and amazing. You are strong and courageous. Keep fighting for your children and yourself. You are correct; he just doesn’t get it.
Thank-you for sharing your story.
Trying to make sense out of it is always hard as we're trying to understand behavior that a reasonable person can't fathom ever doing.
You are strong and brave and I wish you the best in continuing to move forward with a happy and healthy life for you and your children.
You're not crazy. You're a strong woman and a fine, fine mother. Don't let him think you're the problem because you're not, you're the solution.Thank you so much for sharing and I'm going to pray for your strength and clear thinking in the midst of the insanity. We women can do anything for our children.
My heart breaks for you and your kids. I know there are no words to help you heal. But the fact that you shared this leaves me in awe of you.
"someone should have done this to you a long time ago"
Does every abuser say that? It sure seems that way. Mine did. And I have heard many many other women say the same. I hate those words.
*HUGS*
Thank you for sharing your story.
I am so sorry for all you endured... please know that you are a strong, wonderful, and amazing woman and no one should treat you like a punching bag.
Thank you so much for sharing your story.
Wow, you are brave.
(((((HUGS)))))
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