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Wow, you are an incredibly strong woman and I'm so proud of you. To endure all of those horrendous things and lie to others, it must have been indescribable. I'm so happy you made it through everything, you never deserved such abuse and pain.
I hope you will find the happiness you deserve now that this chapter is closed.

Thank you for telling the truth.

what an incredible story. I'm so glad you spoke out, and are lighting a candle against that darkness with your words.

Thanks for telling your story. I have so much respect for you! Keep going.

Heather, I'm glad your life has gotten so much better. I read through the history on your blog(s) and it's a powerful testimony that you share. Bless you.

I know it wasn't easy, but thank you for sharing your story. For showing others that they don't have to suffer. Thank you for being a survivor. ((hugs))

I am so glad you got away. No one deserves that. You don't. There is someone out there who will love you with all of their being...who will love you for who you are. Not who they want you to be. I wasn't sure that could happen but after 13 years of abuse I had enough and I finally left and then I met a man who has made it his whole life to make me happy. A man who makes me feel beautiful and smart and loved every day. It is out there for you too.

Thank you for sharing your story.

Heather, thank you so much for sharing your story. You are a brave woman, and I wish you all the happiness and peace in the world.

Heather, I commend you HUGELY for speaking out. Thank you for breaking your silence and for sharing here.

Wishing you nothing but the utmost peace.

Thanks for sharing. I'm so glad that you have your physical freedom; please keep working towards freedom for your soul and psyche- you deserve it.

It will take time, but you've waited this long, so you'll manage.

It won't be easy but you've come this far, so you can do it.

It can be scary, but you're here so you've shown that you've got the courage and the sheer willpower to speak out ... and be heard.

Eventually though, the wounds will heal, the scars will fade and you can take this collection of little nightmares and shape it into a badge of honor. A badge that says:

I survived this.
I'm better than this.
This will never be me again.

Wear it proudly, dear. May you find the peace and happiness you deserve.

Your telling of your truth, as you do it here, is like black, toxic clouds rolling away and light --, bright, pure, uplifting light -- pouring through. Thank you for sharing your story with us. Best wishes for continued peace in your life.

good thing that you have decided to do what you have to do.
my best wishes with you in your born again avatar!

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Cunning. Baffling. Powerful.

Those are the three best words in AA, Al-anon, and Alateen to describe life with an alcoholic. Tough love is very hard to learn, even harder to master. And recognizing co-dependent behavior in oneself can be image shattering.

Thank you for speaking out. Thank you for pledging to share your story.

Keep coming back!

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Prayers of peace, love, and healing. May you close this chapter and this book. Prayers of strength as you move foward to start a new chapter in a new book, a book with a happy ending.

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You are powerful.

You are so amazingly brave. Speaking out is the bravest thing I can think of. Keep helping others in this way, you make such a difference.

I hope that as time goes on, you will remember with a little less pain.

Thank you so much for raising your voice and refusing to be quiet... that takes such courage! You are awesome! I am so glad that you made your way out of the situation. Prayers for a beautiful and peaceful life for you and your son.

This is beautiful and sad, all at once. Although I know that these memories will never go away and maybe never even fade, I hope that as that chapter of your life was closed, you've gained many beautiful, happy memories.
Thank you for sharing, for giving other women the courage to speak up, the courage to know that they can leave.

It's a powerful story you tell, and I can only begin to imagine how hard it is to tell it. But that "unflinching honesty" so highly regarded in 12-step programs sort of requires it. I hope you don't still blame yourself. This was on him, not you. And I hope with all I am that you realize that now.

It's a long, long road back and there will be times when it seems just too hard. When those times come, look back on the love you find here and let it carry you for a while. There is no shame in leaning on us, on your friends. It's why we're here.

Your story, even though it's uniquely yours, is so tragically common it defies description. You represent a hundred, a thousand, ten thousand who have not yet found their voices. You speak for them, when they cannot speak for themselves. And because of that, some of them will recognize their lives in your words. Because of that some of them will see a future where before they saw only more of the same.

Because of that, some of them will be saved before it's too late.

It is a good thing you've done here. For you, for your son, and for people you'll never meet. We will do no less for you.

Much love.

Thank you for letting us be a part of your story. Wishing you continued courage and strength and the knowledge that you are not alone.

Speaking out is strong. Thank you for sharing your story.

Thank you for sharing. I'm glad, for you and your son, that you were able to get out. That was a very brave thing to do.

Thank-you for being brave enough to not only tell your story but survive your story.

I applaud you for being honest in your attempts to chase after him, make things seem ok, even though some may wonder why you did those things (but those of us who have been there understand and I only hope this might help others realize that they not only have to break the physical cycle of abuse by the emotional cycle as well).

Thank you for the commitment to never be silent. I am grateful that you are free.

I remember a lot of the same stuff. You are not alone. So much love to you for your bravery and for your safety.

Peace for you. I hope you finally get some peace.

Thank you for sharing your story. And I read a few of your blog entries, hope that you and your lil man find the peace you deserve.

Bravo, Heather. So proud of you for ending the silence and speaking out. Your voice is loud and clear. I am sure many will be helped by your courage. Blessings to you, dear one.

I'm glad you've shared your story. I think you're incredibly brave.

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