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Congratulations on telling your story. That took a lot of courage. Thank you for trusting us with your pain. What he did to you was terrible, but I am so happy that you are seeking out support and moving on from it. It doesn't matter that you didn't scream or talk about it until now - the fact is that you are no longer silent, and your voice has been heard. Thinking of you and wishing you the best. You deserve it.

Thanks for your story. It is important to remember/express/reaffirm that even when the rapist doesn't acknowledge it as such (i.e., contacting you like it was nothing, etc.) it is still real to us as victims. Be healed, Kimberly.

Everyone, It has been a while since I visited this page with my story on it. Thanks for all the wonderful comments and for still after all this time finding my story worth reading. This was one of many steps to healing the pain from all those years ago and I am in a much better place now. For those of you who struggle I want to say that peace is possible. After struggling for so long I started talking, I shared my story, and I started healing. I found a peace I couldn't find before. You can find it too. Remember, Always use your voice...even if it is shaking. Keep shaking and SHOUTING!

It takes a lot of courage to share an ordeal such as this. Thank you for finding the strength to tell your story. I'm sorry you had to endure such a terrible thing.

well done to you for sharing your story ! its a good start , i was raped by 2 men my friends father and son when i was 11 , i am now 46 and have just found the courage to go to the police ! they all live in my area , they have controled my life for too long ! and i hope to some day that you will find the strength and courage to go to the police , i am scared , but i know my soul will never be settled until i see them brought to justice ! take care .

He deserves to be punished for his actions....and hopefully his kid and wife are safe. Abusers often intimidate their wives, and keep them silent too.
For instance look at the sad and tragic death of this woman by her abuser..her 7and 8 yr old were too frightened to scream for help to save their mother...
I am glad you are stronger now and fighting for other kids and women being abused...

http://www.goldcoast.com.au/article/2010/10/14/262781_crime-and-court-news.html

Such a terrible thing to have happen to you and carry on your own all these years. Thank you for sharing your story! Feel proud that you were able to take those steps in sharing your trauma, and have pride in your determination to not let him take any more from you than he already has.
I wish you peace and happiness.

I hope speaking out brings you peace. Thank you for sharing your story.

I'm so sorry for you. Thanks for speaking out here.

Kimberly : Violence UnSilenced http://ff.im/-nCpSe

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Darling Woman - I'm so sorry for what happened to you. He stole your innocence and your childhood. I hope that if my 10 year old daughter is ever faced with something like this she will talk to me and I will listen. God, I hope and pray for that. I wish your mother had trusted your instincts. I thank you for sharing and getting this out of your body and soul and helping the rest of us. You poor dear, I'm just so sorry there are people in the world like this.

Kimberly,
You don't know me and nor I you, but I do know that your story will give so many courage. YOU are courageous and powerful. I applaud you and your strength.

So, so, sorry. What a nightmare. You are right. He will not win this battle. God bless.

You are an inspiration. I'm not even sure how I came to follow you on Twitter, or to read your blog, but it was through you that I found Violence Unsilenced and shared my story and found the Survivor Mural Project and shared my art. Those were both important in my healing process... I can't thank you enough. I am so sorry for your experiences. You are such a strong woman. Thank you so much for using your voice and encouraging the rest of us to do the same. Prayers for a beautiful, calm and peaceful life!

Really? He facebooked you? What a disgusting arse. I remain in awe of you strong, brave women who share your stories. Thank you.

You are so, so brave. Thank you for being inspiring and speaking out.

I was eating cookies while reading your story. The violent tears just started washing me again and I almost choked on the cookie. Had to spit it out.

I kept wondering why was I crying. Why am I hurting? Is it because of your story or the hidden pain of my own?

You are doing great. You are making it loud and he have to live with his silent evil in darkness and one day he will have to give account.

*HUG*
I'm sorry you are terrorirzed like this.

Aloha!

I'm sorry for your horrible experience. What a brave woman you are to tell your story.

Good for you for taking control of your life and not letting him hurt you again. You are strong. You are incredible. He is nothing.

what an unbelievable asshole. Bravo on you for bringing his sickness to the light. you are amazing

My heart breaks for you. I'm so, so sorry.

Thank you so much for sharing your story, and speaking out, Kim.
Congratulations on the steps you've taken towards become a survivor.
Big hugs,
H

Thanks everyone! And thanks Maggie or letting me share my story.

THanks for sharing your story with us. I know it is hard but It feels good to get it out doesn't it? It's amazing and incredibly SAD how many people this type of thing has happened to.

Your strength and bravery both then and now are inspiring.

I told my story at violence unsilenced... http://bit.ly/dompeF

Oh, Kimberly. You are so strong. What he did to you is unconscionable, and you deserved so much better. My rapist tried to contact me years later as well. It's awful to have him anywhere near my life, and I know you feel the same. A rapist is like a disease that infects the tissues of your life, and the closer he comes to you, the more involved he is in your thoughts and your life. I hope he never contacts you again. Be strong, be brave, and know that you are truly amazing.

"It is eating me up inside." I hope you find some relief. Thank you so much for the courage you summoned to tell the details of your story.

PLS Support: Kimberly http://bit.ly/bmstdm

I spoke out at Violence UnSilenced... http://fb.me/E5JHCejE Please read my story of survival.

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Thank you for bravely sharing your story. I can't believe he is still so horrifically clueless as to what he did to you to think contacting you would ever be ok. I hope you find peace. You are so strong.

He tried to contact you on Facebook??? What supreme nerve. I am so angry for what happened to you, so damn mad you had to suffer through all of this.

Thank you for adding your voice, telling your truth. May all the power and strength in the world be yours as you continue your fight for healing.

You're an extremely brave woman, Kimberly. It comes out right through in your words. I hope more people will be encouraged to speak out as well. I wish you peace and happiness.

Thank you for speaking out.

He is slime. It never ceases to sicken me to hear how they think what they've done is perfectly fine.
You are awesome. You are so brave to share your story.

Kimberly,
What struck me the most about your story was this line:
"I definitely was not dressed to draw attention to myself".
As if you still feel the need to defend / justify / explain your 13 year old self. That man was in control regardless of what you were wearing. What's worse, he seems to have pre-meditated the whole thing.

I don't know what it is about those situations that keep children from confiding in someone they trust. But obviously there are adults that count on it.

Maybe stories like yours will help to "un-silence" someone in that situation. Thank you for being so brave and so strong.

Your strength and determination comes through in your writing, both here and on your blog. Please do not allow silence to eat you up inside. Please use your strength and determination to get the help you need to recover from this event. You’ve just taken an important first step – you found your voice and used it! What’s the next step?

I'm so sorry, Kimberly. Good for you for breaking your silence, and even more so, good for you for ignoring his 'friendship' request. I hope writing this gave you a little more peace.

You are so brave to share your story. You will encourage other young women to tell their stories, and speak out. God Bless you and your husband.

Thank you for your kind words everyone. It means so much to me.

oh kimberly, he tried to contact you? I am constantly amazed at the way people can think such actions are ok. What he did to you is NOT ok. And you are a strong woman. Continued healing to you, thank you for speaking up.

i'm so sorry. Blessings to you.

Kimberly,
You ARE an amazing and extraordinary being. That is something you will always, always be. Thank you for sharing your story, for speaking out, and for helping others to see more deeply the evil that rape is.

Peace,
Lance

I cannot even imagine the pain and fear you must've felt... or the bravery it takes to go on, to ever trust again.
I've seen my rapist a handful of times since, and I know how hard it is, how it brings it all back. You are a survivor.

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