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Where to begin--nowhere is there a good place. My judgment of people was way off back then (too trusting can be a bad thing.) A man who has his 13-year-old daughter living with him (and she chose to live with him over her mother) asks me to marry him--sounds like a perfect setting for a second beginning, SYNTHROID pharmacy, SYNTHROID wiki, right?
So very wrong. Into the marriage a few years--not the best, but I didn’t think the worst other than the fierce temper. His son comes to lives with us. Suddenly his daughter runs away at 16--she was into pot, SYNTHROID description, SYNTHROID reviews, lying, cheating and partying, SYNTHROID dose, Order SYNTHROID from United States pharmacy, so I thought she needed to go be with her mother. She hated her father (with good reason, I find out later.) Again, cheap SYNTHROID, SYNTHROID gel, ointment, cream, pill, spray, continuous-release, extended-release, stupidly or naively (or both), I have no clue.
We have a lot of money--the partnership he is in is doing well so there are lots of vacations and “stuff." But the walls of our house witness the most horrific acts a mother can imagine. I find out years later that this went on not only when I was gone, buy SYNTHROID from canada, Purchase SYNTHROID for sale, but while I was in the house. How devastating is that to hear--me--who always said, buy cheap SYNTHROID, SYNTHROID without a prescription, “How can a parent NOT know that is going on?” Easy--the child is told her mother will be hurt if she tells anyone. And the abuse on me escalates. His son tries to break it up once and he goes after his son with a hammer. When you allow yourself to become a victim of abuse, SYNTHROID dosage, Where can i buy SYNTHROID online, your self-worth goes right down the tubes. You are unlovable, worthless, order SYNTHROID online c.o.d, Buy SYNTHROID online cod, just someone the world would be better off without. But I digress… this isn’t just about me.
Go a few years later--the verbal abuse is excessive, truly unbearable, fast shipping SYNTHROID, Where can i cheapest SYNTHROID online, but I have no money and the partnership has gone bust. Since he is a control freak and keeps the checkbook locked in his truck and he pays the bills, I don’t think I have anywhere to take Krista and survive. And I would have taken his son, too--I wouldn’t leave him behind. But I can’t take them and go home to my parents--it’s not that easy with them--they’ve already loaned me money to pay bills since he was putting his paycheck up his nose. Then the physical abuse starts with me--again, the threats of death if anyone is ever told, or if we leave. But my “suffering” was nothing compared to what I was daily subjecting my daughter to by staying. Then the suicide attempt--all Krista did at the hospital was apologize to me, and all I could tell her was how much I loved her and that it was okay. What kind of parent am I where my daughter wants to leave? How could I not know? Like an imbecile, I thought she was an overachiever who couldn’t take it anymore. (the DUH factor)
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Then he comes home early (during the move) and Krista confronts him (I am not there right then, unfortunately, comprar en línea SYNTHROID, comprar SYNTHROID baratos. SYNTHROID blogs, Of course he denies everything and his son is there hearing all this. He takes his father into another room and Krista is hysterical waiting for me. I get her to my new place and away from the house entirely.
Now no one in my family understands that I must be cordial to this man for the next five years (but I don’t have to live with him.) He has ruined us financially by not paying back taxes--if I’m not cordial, online buy SYNTHROID without a prescription, SYNTHROID coupon, he will run away and leave the entire debt to me alone. BUY SYNTHROID OVER THE COUNTER, I had to work three jobs to pay just my share. It took over 10 years, cheap SYNTHROID no rx, Effects of SYNTHROID, but I am finally out from under that cloud.
Years go by--Krista (who by now has graduated from college, living in Maui) and I are talking and she says, SYNTHROID samples, “You always knew” which shook me down to the core of my soul. “No, I didn’t.” “But I showed you my journal that day" (when she was 8). "It said what he had been doing to me.” “But the page I read just talked about how he was angry all the time and cussing and throwing things. That’s when I told you that I wouldn’t leave you alone in the house with him anymore.” “You didn’t read the page that talked about everything?” “No..”
Well, just writing about this right now makes my heart hurt so much and the tears won’t stop.
How could my child love me when she thought I stayed KNOWING WHAT WAS HAPPENING. She told me she always knew I loved her. But how? What kind of a monster am I to allow this? Hindsight is always 20-20. Looking back, there are so many clues albeit subtle and maybe not so subtle.
Present day: Krista and I are very close. She is a wonderful woman, mother, daughter, a beautiful person inside and out, and now has a love and family of her own. There is not a day that goes by that I do not thank heaven for the second chance I was given to be her mother. She chose to keep me in her life and forgives me for not only placing her in harm’s way, but keeping her there for what must have seemed an eternity. Oh--and his daughter? We’re close too--the reason she was into everything and picking fights and finally ran away? He was abusing her too--and she didn’t know how to get Krista and me out and away from him other than acting out. She didn’t know how to tell me. I’m so sorry she had to go through all that too.
Now his son is a different story. He knows what his sister has said and, unfortunately, has blocked that day when Krista confronted his father from his mind entirely. Doesn’t “choose” to remember it. And he has a daughter..., BUY SYNTHROID OVER THE COUNTER. And keeps his father in his family’s life…. So, we do not see them anymore. We do not want to accidentally run into him ever again.
It’s going to take me a whole lot longer to forgive myself, if I ever truly do. I’m so lucky that Krista keeps me in her heart. She is the kindest and most loving and forgiving person I know--we could all take a lesson from her.
Please parents, siblings, friends, and yes, victims – pay attention to every nuance. There are places to go, people to talk to, so many possibilities available and damn the lack of finances. Living in a cardboard box is better than staying in an evil place, no matter how comfortable. When something seems off –even if it doesn’t appear so on the outside--get out. Listen to your heart. It’s usually right..
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