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I wish I had an answer for them.

shannon

leslie,

you are brave and smart for sharing and for taking steps to heal. prayers that you have a supportive group around you, and that your family will come to see that this wasn't your fault, and that they'll recognize you for the survivor that you are.

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Suz

Hugs and thank the god/goddess you got out!

Aerin

I know how easy it is to believe those beautiful lies over the ugly truth. I am so sorry for your experience... it is hard, but you are strong and you will be ok. Wishing you peace.....

clara

You are strong. Thank you for speaking out.

Kristi

I ask myself the same question all the time. How did this happen? I don't think it had anything really to do with some fault on my part. I think you and I and many of these other women just happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time when some conman was looking for his next victim. He was looking for someone sweet and caring and generous and just a little lonely. You're not alone anymore. You've got all of us!

Aubrey

thank you.

ShadowChaser

No one can really understand the 'how and why' of these situations unless they've experienced it themselves. You are a brave and strong woman. Thank you for sharing your story!

Becky

You are incredibly strong. Never forget that. You survived this. And it wasn't your fault.
Don't forget to love yourself.

muskrat

That sucks. I'm glad you've gotten out of the relationship and hope you can forgive yourself and him, so that you can move on.

Sometimes I think we end up too far into a situation to get out gracefully before we realize that this is really a problem. I know it happened that way for me. I still don't understand how I got into a situation I never imagined myself in - but the strength lies in finally untangling the web cast around you and doing the slow work to extricate yourself. So remember that you finally were able to figure out how to get out - and let that strength guide you as you work toward wholeness again.

I too am a survivor... it gets better with every passing day. Congratulations on having the courage to stand up and walk away.....

Arby

Leslie:

Congratulations on finding the courage to escape your abuser, to speak up and speak out and share your story here. I pray that during the long healing process you will find serenity and prosperity in your life.

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Zoeyjane

Thank you for speaking out. I'm glad that you found the strength to move on.

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Thank you Leslie for sharing your story. You have shown such amazing strength and I am so thankful that you escaped that life and wish you all the best in your healing xo

Angela in Ontario

It breaks my heart that you went through this. Thank you for sharing, and for being an inspiration. (biggiantsquishyhugs)

Kori

It happens because some people are abusers, plain and simple. Don't let anyone tell you different. I send hugs.

Jennifer

I wish you continued strength as you are healing from this. It wasn't your fault and that's why you don't know how it could have happened.

misssrobin

I spent lots of time asking myself how I got where I was. It happens so gradually and slowly. So seductively. I just didn't see it coming; it sounds like you didn't either.

I am so glad you were able to get away. I hope writing helped. May you be blessed in your healing.

Thank you for your story.

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Leslie,

Thank you for sharing your story. You are a strong, wonderful, beautiful woman who deserves to be loved and respected. Never forget that God loves you regardless of anything that has happened in your life.

I'm so glad you found a way to leave and that you're sharing your story here. That feeling of believing that there's something wrong with you can be a hard thing to shake - it is for me - but one thing that has helped is to share the details and tell the stories about what happened. Here's why: Until I could see how crazy or controlling or ridiculous or abusive all of it sounded to someone else, it was hard for me to see it for myself. I knew it. I knew what was happening wasn't normal. I knew. But you get used to things and rationalize them and stop seeing how far outside of normal things have become.

I hope you find some peace and the answers you're looking for. You're brave, you know.

libbey

i am so sorry. Peace is found, but also cultivated. You deserve true inner peace and acceptance of yourself. I hope you find it.

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Sweet Leslie, Your story breaks my heart! I want to hug every woman who has experienced abuse and let them know that it's just simply not their fault. As women, we put so much on ourselves, taking the blame for others' actions, even if we don't say it outloud. I sense the continued pain in your story above and I'm so desperately sorry!

As a survivor myself, I've heard all the cliche sayings about how we're only given what we can handle and how we're still alive so that must mean something....but that isn't always what we need to hear. Sometimes we just need to hear that we aren't alone. Sometimes we just need to hear that there are other women out there crying bitter tears along with us. Sometimes we just need to hear....silence.

My hope and prayer for you is that, as you heal from your past, you will remember 1) you didn't deserve the abuse you received, 2) the hell you endured was NOT, in any way, shape or form your fault, and 3) you are worth SO much more than the abuse you got!

Walter Conley

Your post is more helpful than you know to others who have gone (or are currently going) through something like this.

MommyGeek

Sending a little prayer up for you. I hope you're supported and safe now.

Angela

I see myself in many aspects of your story: "I was the one with the problem" and "bought me gifts with my own money" in particular. So happy we are out of these relationships, exploring how we were ever in them. Thank you for your post.

Maria

Wishing you peace. Thank you for sharing this.

SheilaW

Thank you for sharing your story, so glad to hear you are on the other side of it now!