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I pray that God continues to shower you with blessings and that through you, others are blessed. I see His grace in your strength in courage.
You're right... you should have been able to trust them, and there is no excuse for what they did. I am so sorry for your experiences. You certainly didn't deserve any of it. I am very glad to hear you are studying to be a social worker... how awesome you will be able to share your strength and compassion with the world! Prayers for peace and comfort as you continue to heal.
Let me start by stating that you are 100% not guilty for the actions of your abusers. Your abusers are 100% guilty for what they did to you. During your journey of healing, please remember that sexual abuse, sexual assault, rape, or pedophilia, knows no boundaries based on race, gender, or creed. It is a societal illness. Please do not discount or discredit the incredible damage done to young men as well as women by assuming that “the patriarchal system our society engages in” allows sexual assault “to continue to run rampant; women and men are not equal, therefore men can do what they want with women.” Men cannot do anything they want to women. That’s insane. Young men are damaged horribly through sexual abuse. Read Richard’s story from April 8th, Brian’s story from March 15th, or Karl from October 12th of 2009. As survivors we must work together to provide a place of support and a forum for sharing our voices, as free from other issues as we can make it, so that everyone feels welcome to participate. Your anger is genuine and real. Your honesty is impressive. I wish you continued healing. Congratulations on your recovery, and thank you for sharing your story here.
I hope you know that your story , and the way you put it together will shine a light upon someones life while reading it , like it has done with mine. There is an incredible strength within you, and Im glad you have come to know that it is God. Spiritual nurturing is what heals you ....completely! Hold on to that! Thank you for Speaking out!! Be blessed on your journey!
Your strength and how you're using it to help others is so inspiring. Thank you for not staying silent.
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First, it totally sucks that people treated you so badly and violated your trust. Second, the way you have overcome and empowered yourself to make yourself and the world a better place is inspiring. Best wishes and blessings on your journey.
Thank you for sharing your story and for being so open. One thing that is often difficult for Survivors to face is the "loss" of a loved one, someone you once trusted. Abuse within the family is so complex and I think that sometimes people have difficulty understanding that, unless they've been through it.
May you be blessed on your journey!
You keep surviving, journeying, being strong. I want women to read your words and know that they can survive like you.
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I'm sorry that people who you should have been able to trust hurt you. I'm glad you had the wisdom and courage to do what you needed to do to begin healing. Thank you for sharing your story.
You are so amazing. I love that you are incorporating your spiritual beliefs in your healing.
Alive is such a good thing!
This is amazing. I think a lot of us who don't physically fight back feel like we may have somehow just "let" it happen, even though we know we didn't. We know the truth. But you're right... we did do one thing, the most important thing, we survived. YOU survived.
"This woman says no more!" - wonderful. Thank you for speaking out and I wish you all the best on your journey.