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I too felt the pain. I was in a head on collision, recovering from broken bones,a deflated lung, a deep hole in the right side of my head, a mouth that was wired shut for 6 wks and many surgeries. After I got back home from the hospital and went to work asap and got my daughter a very good job with the mortgage company at the corporate bank at 17, I worked at so that she could drive since I still had a leg brace on up to my thigh and a neck brace on due to severe neck trauma and my jaw was broken in 2 places and I needed to get back to work because I had 3 other children at home to take care of.
I never knew anything that my daughter was going through with her step dad,she never told me until much later. We knew that he was lazy and wouldn't work, so me and the three oldest children had plans to leave in the fall which was only 3 months away. Miss Crystal had a great job, good money, good insurance, and then she ran away to California to be with a boyfriend that she had at 11yrs old, leaving me with 2 phone bills over $500/ea. I begged for her to come back but she wouldn't, I talked to the family that she was with and they promised me that they would treat her like one of their own, but when Miss Crystal started sneaking out at night to have sex with their son, they asked her to leave. I didn't even know she was living and working at the barn until she called me about the rape situation. She wouldn't come home,even though at that time me and the kids had bought our own place, so I called her Nanny who I had been good friends with and she was there through all four of my pregnancies and she and her husband said that they would take Miss Crystal in. They loved her as their own but Crystal just couldn't stay out of trouble, she kept leaving at night through the window to see another guy, nobody really knew who he was. Nanny and her husband said that they would have to ask Miss Crystal to leave because of all her lies and sneaking out at night. I understood their dilemna and asked again for her to come home, by that time I had gotten on my own and bought my first house, 3bedrooms and 2 baths on 3 acres. Instead she met a second guy and got married in Reno. They ended up having a beautiful boy that I love dearly. I got to see him born and helped her out when he wouldn't sleep at night, I loved it. I got to see him again after my 6th surgery. Miss Crystal"s siblings got together and sold what they had and I sold what I had to get her and my grandson out here. We had such a great time with them. I played with my grandson, he liked to sit on the giant skateboard and roll down the little hill and ride on the 4 wheeler. Then Crystal left suddenly again back to her husband who cheated on her for the I don't know how many times. Now she is divorced from what I hear and I am the bad person in her eyes, I am not allowed into her life but she is close to her in-laws who have done nothing but tell me what an awful daughter I have and how she turned their only son to be bad.
Me and my other 3 children are very tight and wish dearly that Miss Crystal would come back home and we can all be a united family again. Miss C and I used to be the best of friends and that is where I went wrong, she was so adultlike and we became such close friends that after she turned 16, I didn't treat her as a daughter but my best friend in the whole world. I miss my best friend. I know I should of been more of a mother but times were tough and I worked very hard to make sure you all had a roof over your heads and food in your tummies that I relied on you too much. I am sorry for that and you know I have apologized until I am blue in the face.
We all love you and miss you Miss C. You are still our family and you are welcomed home anytime. Love Mom
P.S. I too have been Molested as a child and raped as a teenager, I truly wanted to hold you and be with you, I wish you would of come home. You would of been surrounded by love.

All of my life, I have had periods where I too thought I had moved on. That I had gotten past it all. Then something is said, or I read something, and it's all right there all over again. Damaged is a word I use to describe myself often in my own head. Many evenings when I'm alone, I cry. I cry for who I want to be. For who I wish I wasn't.

We strive to grow and move forward. And reading your story, I can see thats exactly what your doing. Yes, I do believe our past helps define us. We just have more to draw from to be the best we can be.

Please understand that you are no longer a victim (not ever again!) but a survivor and a HERO. You are infinately stronger than you ever imagined. By taking the beyond imaginable leap of faith you TOLD your story. That is more courageous than you appreciate now. But I see you, hear you and BELIEVE YOU. And more importantly I want you to know I am here for you. It takes time. I am sorry for that 17 year-old child but I am honored to have had the chance to see the strong woman you have become. Hugs

Hugs tons of them

"I can tell you that when you think you have moved on it will will haunt you unexpectedly."

I understand. After years of revisiting the memories I came to understand that each episode uncovered more that I had to deal with, until I came to a point where I knew I was finished. My wife is certain that the memories will come back. I disagree. I wrote this to say that because mentally and emotionally we can only handle so much for so long, the healing comes in little bits and pieces. It sucks, because we're usually blindsided when it happens. We say, "Shit, I have to deal with this again?!" Keep working at it. Thank you for sharing your story.

I'm so sorry your trust was betrayed like that. You may not see it from here, but you have a better future ahead of you than he ever will. Because you don't have to carry that guilt. It belongs to him.

That episode was disturbing; she was such a strong character and yet vulnerable, which scares anyone who thinks they are "safe" for one reason or another.

You may always have been the victim of that crime, but if you can look in the mirror today, you have healed at least somewhat, and the rest of your healing journey is up to you. I wish you luck.

I had the episode taped for weeks, trying to get up the courage to watch it.

I applaud you for speaking out, and I'm sorry someone ruined such a safe and happy place for you that way.

Thank you for being so brave and putting words to what happened to you. We are here to hear you, believe you and express how sorry we are that you were so violently treated and so cruelly betrayed.

Healing will come to you because of your brave first step of reaching out and unsilencing your ordeal.

Love, support and hugs to you.

You are not the only person that episode blindsided.
I believe you.
You did nothing wrong. And you're taking the power back by saying it out loud. Big, huge, giant hugs to you!

Reading @VUnSilenced Miss Crystal http://bit.ly/iIRc9f

You definitely weren't the only one effected by that episode of Private Practice. It was harrowing, and all the more real because of Charlotte's strength. Based on you're writing here, and a quick view of your blog, your strength also shines through. You were abused and betrayed by those who should have protected you. I'm very sorry.

I'd just like to gently challenge that line about always being a victim... we can heal and grow beyond how others have treated us. We don't have to be defined by their actions and issues.

Wishing you all the best,
CG

Miss Crystal,
keep telling your story.
I BELIEVE YOU. I BELIEVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!
I care. And so do others.
Thank you so much for sharing this
Love Love Love.
K.
PS. You are not a victim anymore. Look, you already took the first step in writing this. You have taken the POWER away from the ABUSER.

I pass my sympathies on to you, but you are wrong if you feel as if you are always a victim once attacked. I have had two horrible, terrifying experiences of the same manner ( both attackers i did not know). I was disgusted, i was hurt and shattered, and I felt that way for a long time. Especially after the second attack it brought back tons of feelings i had buried. BUT...i took those feelings into my own hands and dealt with them. I realized it was much easier to play the victim, then it was to overcome those terror filled memories (if that makes sense). I found some amazing holistic methods that helped me huge core, and now I no longer feel like a 'victim'. Take your power back. Only if you don't take back that power and face those feelings, will you always be a victim.

I hear you... I believe you... and I understand. You are a beautiful, strong, courageous woman who is worthy of being treated with dignity and respect. That man and woman aren't deserving of your company. It's true... the trauma of rape never goes away completely, and it is when we are all alone with no one to comfort us that we feel it the most. There are so many of us struggeling with the same issues. We really aren't alone. Even if we only know each other for this one brief moment.... I am here, I can hear you and you matter...

*hugs* from me too. Thank you for sharing your story.

Reading @VUnSilenced Miss Crystal http://bit.ly/iIRc9f

*HUGS* That's all I've got.

Oh Miss Crystal! Thank you for sharing. It is odd how different things can draw up memories. But you are not a slave to your prior victimization. Yes, the flashbacks will come. But you deserve to be treated right and to be heard and listened to.