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18 comments
Aerin
Aerin

I understand. I had an affair with the person who raped me 15 years later... something I'm sure I will beat myself up over for the rest of my life. I think it's about trying to turn it all around... take control back even though it doesn't really make any logical sense. You are a such a strong survivor... thank you for sharing and reminding me I am not alone.

Faiqa
Faiqa

Thanks for sharing your strength and honesty. And, no, you didn't deserve this. Not one bit.

Steph
Steph

I read this and I almost cried. Been there.
I have also read your blog. Thank you for speaking out.
If you EVER need help, please contact me.

Gina
Gina

Rapists aren't reasonable - they live with rage.Thank goodness you saw the light and left. None of this was your fault - you deserved NONE of it.

Best wishes to you for strength and healing.

MommaKiss
MommaKiss

just keep looking forward, sharing - writing here - hopefully it helps. I'm so sorry for what you had to endure.

kateanon
kateanon

I read all of this and the first post and several pages on your blog. If you ever need another person to talk to, get in touch with me, I would love to talk to you. You are brave for sharing yourself so openly.

Frelle
Frelle

you are brave and strong. thank you for posting here and sharing your story.

Val
Val

Oh, my heart breaks for you. I have been there. Raped by a friend while married to a man that had been raping me for years. I guess I was lucky in a way that I was older before any of it happened, because there's enough of life before and after to put it all in a greater context. Not that that's easy. I read some of your blog, would love to be in touch. There's a life out here, promise promise promise.

Kristy
Kristy

Your honesty is a testament to your strength. To give voice to this issue and put light on shame is remarkable. Thank you.

Laura
Laura

You may have dated him, but in the end, you left and that takes courage.

karen
karen

I'm glad you haven't looked back, you didn't deserve what he did to you, you did nothing wrong. Stay strong

Jennifer
Jennifer

I am so very sorry you were subjected to this. I pray for your continued healing.

Jan
Jan

I'm so, so sorry that this happened to you. Whatever happens, you're a survivor. I hope you can get what you need to thrive, too.

And NOBODY deserves what you got. Never forget that.

God bless.

Ratz
Ratz

I have no words for you. As I read this, I saw the brutality of the events that you were surrounded with. I see your courage when you decided to run and never look back. You are indeed a survivor sister. I hope you the best.

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