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43 comments
Amber
Amber

Quin...

You amaze me...

Your children and the life you have created and built for yourself... they, and it, are a testament to the courageous spirit you have. That spirit is part of what has allowed you to refuse to fear and to keep your heart open to love.

You deserve many, many, more happy and good things in this world.

I love you, my friend!

Eaton Bennett
Eaton Bennett

I hope and pray you gain strength from writing and sharing your very sad story. Shame on anyone who physically/mentally harms another person, Each small step you take is huge and all in the process of getting free. God Bless. Eaton.

Dorothy
Dorothy

Quin,
Wonderfully said! I too applaud you for your strength in sharing. There is a lot familiar; but, a lot no one should have to go through.
I don't really believe in Karma, per se, rather in the strength our paths have given us and in survival! I do believe there is a reason for everything-even if it is hard to find. I am proud you survived and chose to share.

As for "relationships: I understand how hard it can be to ever trust someone else and trust yourself, as well.
Bless you and keep moving forward!

Joy
Joy

Thank you for sharing your story. Your strength and courage are amazing... To raise strong daughters, and supportive sons, and have such wonderful friends as Nathan tells me how wonderful and strong and deserving and beautiful you are.

janet
janet

beautifully written and felt. all i can say is persist till you get there; it'll happen.
'violence-free' - i wish it for all.

perksofbeingme
perksofbeingme

thank you for doing what so many can't. you left. you are so strong and brave. you give me hope. thank you. sending you so much love.

Elizabeth
Elizabeth

PROUD OF YOU FOR SHARING. YOU ARE A STRONG WOMAN.

FreedomFirst
FreedomFirst

I hope your path keeps going up from here.

Jennifer H
Jennifer H

You are brave and strong to tell your story. So much of it I understand, the things you wrote about your childhood. It breaks my heart, all that you've been through, and I'm glad you are safe now.

quin browne
quin browne

thank you to maggie, for the safety of this place.

thank you to all of you, who read and gave me kind words

thank you to all who read, and discovered they are not alone

thank you to god and the universe for giving me the strength to carry on

thank you. all of you.

Emily R
Emily R

Ways lead onto ways, and you have chosen a safer path now.

Another Suburban Mom
Another Suburban Mom

Quin:

Thank you for your bravery. Hopefully the good karma will be coming your way thousandfold.

Coco
Coco

I can certainly see why you would have trust issues. Unfortunately, some sick people are very good at putting up a front that they think others want and need to see. Then when the real self comes out it is scary.

You sound like you are slowly gaining confidence in yourself and your worthiness. Just remember that everyone deserves to be treated special. No one should accept less. No matter what.

MK
MK

I read earlier but didn't respond. Just wanted you to know I read. It's that simple.

Lillian
Lillian

Thank you for having the courage to survive and to share your story.

Veronica
Veronica

Quin,
This is so beautifully written. You're amazingly articulate and in tune with yourself. What a wonderful skill.
Nathan sounds like a charming friend, and I''m glad that you have him.
I'm so sorry for what you've been through. It's horrific.
Speaking the unspeakable takes all the power back.

Mr Lady
Mr Lady

Oh, Quinn, I am so sorry to hear your story, and yet I think you're doing something so many of us can't, and that's standing up and taking care of yourself. PS: Have you ever read Audre Lorde? I think you might really love her.

thordora
thordora

Thank you for your story. Someone took kisses away from me for a long time-took years to get it back, and it's a horrible thing to lose, especially on top of everything else.

golfwidow
golfwidow

You are one of the strongest people I know. Now I have a sense of how you got to be that way.

Joseph Grant
Joseph Grant

Quin, your article is heartbreaking and yet uplifting, to know that even though many have held you down, you rose up time and again and were determined to fight them with your convictions and your words. You are getting the last word in on those who thought they could silence you by their actions. In this case, your mighty words speak louder than their puny actions! They are the weak ones and you have shown your strength. It shows that people are resilient and that while a person can be broken, they can never be defeated. Each day is a brand new day. You are a brave inspiration. Thank you for sharing your story.

MG @ MommyGeekology.com
MG @ MommyGeekology.com

Thank you for sharing your story. It's a sad story, of course - a tragic story. But it is also a story of strength, and of courage. So glad you are here to tell it.

Chrissy
Chrissy

It saddens me that you had to endure so much! But your strength, courage and will to survive is inspiring. Thank you

Aunt Becky
Aunt Becky

I'm so proud that you shared your story. You are a brave, brave person and I'm sorry that you've been through all that you have.

Nicole
Nicole

THAT is the best thing of all -- that you know that it's not your fault; that you're worthy; and that you just want to keep on trying.

That gives you an inner strength that many people never need to find out if they have. it sounds like you have made the most of it. And while it was a lot to bear, it has no doubt made you a more grateful and hopeful person.

I wish every contributor peace and happiness because those are two things that elude so many of us who have to deal with violence on some level. The same holds true for you -- enjoy the beauty of these two gifts.

mary
mary

*applauding* That you have such a wonderful outlook after having bourne all that hate speaks volumes about your strength and character. I cannot imagine how you felt during all of that time, but know that your outlook each day is one step closer to joy.

Mojo
Mojo

I have a "This Week on Violence UnSilenced" feature on my sidebar that uses pull quotes from each post as a means of attracting readers. In most cases, I can identify the line(s) to use pretty readily. But in your case, I was at a total loss. Every paragraph brought some new horror.

I'm inclined to agree with your friend Nathan. But if he's right, you settled your karmic accounts a long, long time ago. No one should be forced to endure the kind of brutality you have for as long as you have. And I ache when I read what it's done to you, and what it's taken from you.

I hope that in some way, posting this has allowed you to take a step toward reclaiming those things. Hope that in giving a voice to your pain you've released some part of it. Most of all, I hope that you'll find yourself able to find someone, love someone, have someone who is deserving of you. Even if you choose not to step back into the minefield (an apt description regardless of circumstances), I hope it's a choice and not something dictated to you by the horror of your history.

All these things I wish for you, from my very core. And from that same place, I thank you for sharing your story here. For placing the offering of your pain on the altar of hope for someone else. Because right now, at this moment, someone is still living that life. Someone is being beaten, someone is being date raped, someone is sliding down that very same wall feeling that very same agony. I hope that your words will reach them somehow, and that in reading them they will begin to realize that what they're living through is survivable.

Your courage in reclaiming your life is a shining example to others. You courage in showing that beacon to those others is too inspiring to describe in mere words.

For all those whose voices have yet to be heard, thank you.

krista
krista

sometimes i think my words are just ridiculous replacements for feelings of understanding and empathy and compassion that can't be contained by little strokes of a keyboard.
i believe there is nothing more powerful than sharing your truth. healing only happens when air hits the wound. and we may not want the scars we have, but that doesn't mean we can't tell ourselves they are beautiful.

Lisa
Lisa

My prayer for you is that if you do find that special man, he becomes a husband like mine. It's the best thing I could wish for you along those lines. I'm glad you have been able to overcome what you've been through. I lived through a small amount of what you did. To this day I still have trouble calling the date rape what it was. I was 15.

Corina
Corina

You have come so far. Your determination and strength are inspiring. Thank you so much for sharing your story.

cat
cat

Quin - You have come through so much and i wish you the very best of what life and the universe has to offer you. Thank you for sharing your story.

PunkOnFire
PunkOnFire

Good for you for breaking free.. and for speaking out! You are brave and strong, and deserving of so much.

Christy
Christy

I'm so sorry for what you've been through. You absolutely deserve someone in your life--in a relationship who will love you, and treat you with kindness and respect. It isn't too much to ask at all. I wish all the peace and love there is to be had.

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