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But still, when the pain gets to be too much, I drink.

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Traci

Thank you for sharing, I am so sorry for what has happened to you. This was and never will be your fault! You are not to blame! No one has the right to do this to another person. I wish you all the best on your healing journey and hope that you continue to thrive in your marriage and life itself xo

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jinani

It is not your fault. Please remember these words every single day because they are the absolute truth.
Don't be fooled or misguided, it was never your fault and never will be.
Every person carries the weight of their actions. I know you carry the pain and the scars, but the sin belongs to these 2 boys, never to you.
Thank you for sharing your story. I pray that you find true happiness.

moonpun

it's not your fault, even though I know sometimes it might seem hard to believe that. You will continue to fight and be strong, even if you drink a little to forget. Thank you for sharing your story and your pain. Be well.

Sunday Stilwell

Oh Amber, I am so sorry. I had no idea this had happened to you.
Thank you for speaking out and giving a voice to those who have not the courage to do so yet.

Stone Fox

being raped is absolutely, totally, 100% not your fault. you did not do a single thing to encourage it or cause it to happen. being drunk is not an open invitation for others to take advantage of you.

you ARE good enough for anything in this world you decide to set your sights on. i hope those days of too much pain become fewer and farther between.

Aerin

I so understand feeling "not good enough"... I still struggle with that and probably always will. You are more than good enough, you are strong and brave and beautiful. It is so hard to get over being betrayed by those we should be able to trust. I hope you are able to see that it was never your fault.... that there is nothing to forgive yourself for.

Rachel

Dobn't ever think it was your fault, it was not.

pgoodness

So NOT your fault. Thank you for sharing your story.

Kate

Amber. Thank you for sharing your story. It sounds like you're figuring it all out and you have a support system to help you. You aren't alone. Not at all.

Mary

Rape is not the fault of the victim. NOT EVER. There is no reason for any man to take sexual liberties with a woman who is not capable of consent. I am glad you are still here with your voice, sharing your words, baring your soul. I wish that I could give you the gift of self-acceptance and self-forgiveness, but those things can only come from within you.

Arby

You are 100% not guilty for being raped. The boys who raped you are 100% guilty of a crime. You may have made some poorer choices drinking, but nothing that you did comes close to justifying rape. This was not all your fault.

Sunny

Thank you for speaking out.

Darren

Amber,
Thank you for sharing this. This is not your fault... I wish, for you, enough healing that you can release the thoughts that burden you... Keep sharing, keep speaking, keep the violence unsilenced!
Blessings to you,
Darren

Rape is NEVER EVER the victim's fault. It's good to repeat that frequently and at random intervals.

As humans we are far more than the sum of all that has happened to us, in our hearts we all know this but it can be hard to see beyond it at times. Your ability to speak your story is amazing, even though difficult to tell and hear. Peace to you sister. Keep talking. Keep breathing. Keep living!

Corinne

Thank you so much for sharing - for voicing your fears and realities.
This was not your fault. I hope one day that little voice stops trying to tell you it was. Because it wasn't.
You are amazing, and worth so much.

Melissa

I to was drunk when I lost my virginity to rape. I remember thinking it was my fault. If only I hadn't gotten drunk. I've been in two abusive marriages since. It's easy to slip into the drink when things start to hurt to much. I've been there, I know. Even now, after all these years, I can't help but wonder.........what if I hadn't gotten drunk. Of course I know that it wasn't my fault..........but somewhere deep lies that insecurity.

Thank you for coming here and posting. As you said, it's not the end. It wasn't the end. The path before you lies in beauty and peace.

sam {temptingmama}

Thank you for sharing, Amber. I am so very sorry this happened to you. But this is NOT your fault. Neither of these horrible acts were your fault.

*hugs* You are loved. You are important. You are good enough.

flutter

please promise that you will find someone to talk to, who will help show you how you are far more than just good enough

Heather

I wish you felt that you were worth so much more, because you are. Especially by sharing this, you have shown everyone that you are strong, brave, and courageous.

Jennifer

Thank you for sharing. It was not your fault. You did nothing to deserve what was done to you.

Lance

Amber,
Your story is heart-wrenching...and hard for me to fully fathom how someone could morally do that, and not feel remorse. Know that you are valued, you are beautiful, and your today will help others to just continue to bring this more out into the open. Thank you so much for sharing.

amber

Thanks, everybody. A little part of me that I didn't know was still bleeding is feeling a little less alone today.

Viki

It was not your fault. You were taken advantage of . You are brave. Hopefully, because you spoke out it will help ease your mind and turn that little voice off in your head. You are a good person.

jaded16

Thank you for speaking out and telling us your story. I hope you don't let the voice get you down. You are a beautiful person and deserve all the happiness in the world. My thought are with you :)

~ Jaded16

Aunt Becky

Oh shit, girl. I'm so sorry. So sorry.

Titanium

That little voice still echoes in my own head, sometimes faint and fuzzy- sometimes announced with pan-clanging unavoidability.

Know this: it was not your fault and you did not deserve it.

Don't let the little voice have the last word. You are so much More. Thank you for sharing your story here, now- today. Your voice is heard. And that's the one that matters.

Miss Grace

You are good enough and it was not your fault. You are MORE than good enough.

TSM 30 somethingandcrazy

I don't know what to say other than to say thank you for sharing. Thank you so very much.

MommaKiss

I'm going to be honest here, I've been in a similar situation. Except my brother stepped in. Thank God. I'm sorry you've had to go through this and hope that you believe in yourself and your strength.

ljpock

You are good enough and deserve all the happiness possible. What happened to you was not your fault - at all!

Thank-you for sharing.

denise

I shed tears for your pain while I applaud your bravery and compassion because you shared your story. You are a gifted, gifted writer. The brutal, raw, open truth of your story will undoubtedly touch and help so many.

Thank you.

Eileen

I think it's hard, and equally important, to step outside ourselves and treat ourselves gently. Think of how you would react reading this story told by a stranger. I've no doubt you would want her healed and would want her to embrace the thought that it was never her fault. I hope you can look at yourself with kindness and gentleness and hold yourself closely today and tomorrow.

Thank you for sharing your story with us.
(((u)))

TeacherMommy

I know that fear. I do. I may not react the same way, but I know the fear all too well.

I don't know what to tell you, other than you ARE strong, and you ARE good enough, and nothing that was done to you was your fault.

Oh, I wish I could give you a hug.

Marla

I have no words, but I want to think you for sharing. You are a brave women who will continue to do great things.