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All of that ends right here and right now.

I've spent years carrying these (and other) incidents locked up within myself. No, I haven't seen a therapist, and yes, it would probably be a good idea. I'm 46 now, mother to a wonderful 23-year-old autistic son and living in blissful sin with my man for 8 years now, NOCTAMID FOR SALE. A good man, too, they are out there. He knows some of my past and loves us both anyway.

This is the first time I've ever told anyone about the gang rape. Thank you for being there and listening, hopefully it will help someone else out there to know they're not alone and they WILL survive. I did; you will, too.

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