My abuse happened almost 3 years ago. When we started out he was such a wonderful man, spent every day together. We had so much fun, so much smiles and laughter. I guess things never really do stay the same.
I remember the first time, I will always remember the first time. A few months into the relationship he came home drunk from partying. I foolishly attempted to get him from the car into the house without waking the whole neighborhood up. He grabbed my armed with such anger, and yanked me in the car. I was too scared to scream, to scared to do anything. I saw my mom watching from her window, she did nothing to help. He drove around the streets crazy, hitting me here and there saying “tonight we will die” and “I am going to crash this car.” I should have walked away then.
A few months later, I ended up pregnant with his baby. It was his decision to abort. He controlled my mind, my thoughts, my decisions. He was very good with his words. I went about the procedure, he wasn’t there for any of it. A year later the same time, I got pregnant again. Same scenario. It pains me to think, I never wanted an abortion but I let someone have that much control over me.
There was countless times where I would do nothing and get punched in the face, get beaten with shoes, kicked and thrown around. I was nothing to him, but a bank account, a place to live, and food on the table. I had barely any friends, I felt alone. What was I supposed to do? The neighbors once called the police, after hearing my screams for help. I was hit one good time to the head, blood coming down my face. The police pounded on the door, while he told me I better not say anything or else. My life was threatened either way. Put a towel on my head, opened the door. The police man knew what was going on, I guess he could see it in my eyes, but he needed me to say it. I was too scared and so they left.
I spent close to two years being beaten emotionally and physically. I found the strength to walk away.
I have since found an amazing man. But my ex won’t leave me alone. Between the threats on my life, credit fraud, stole bank accounts, etc. he won’t go away. I shouldn’t have to walk around always watching my back, but I do. I shouldn’t have threats on my life. I shouldn’t have to have my name bashed and lies told about me and my family, but it has happened. I should have never went through this, but I did, and now I am determined to speak up and break the silence. I am stronger.
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I am so proud of you for speaking out against this abuse and blessings do abound in your life right now. Silence doesn't solve anything! The more people know, the more awareness gets spread and sooner or later this hold he believes he has on you will soon deteriorate. I wish nothing but goodness in your life. Stay strong and stay safe.
Good for you. Scream it from the rooftops...do what you have to do to let him know his power over you is over. You deserve better and you'll get there.
You are strong and brave. Do what you have to do to be safe; call the cops, make noise, continue to be heard in the world. You deserve it. And you help others by doing it. You give us all a gift when you take care of yourself. We learn from you.
Samantha, the strength it took to free yourself that man and share your story is amazing. That strength will continue to carry you through the ways he tries to hurt you.
Thank you so much for sharing this. You're such a strong and amazing person. I'm sorry he continues to make things difficult but keep focusing on what you want and need. You can do it! You did the hardest part. He isn't worthy to carry your shoes.
Samantha, I cannot thank you enough for speaking out. I'm so sorry you went through this and that you're still not free of this man. Please know that your words, your story, and your voice matters -- YOU matter -- and you never know whose life you might change with this post today.
Wishing you peace, now and in the future.