Stacey speaks out about domestic abuse at Violence UnSilenced

February 15, 2012 | domestic violence, survivor story

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Stacey, your story sounds so much like mine! I am so glad you got out when you did and...all the rest of it....it will only make you stronger!!!

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xxlylmousexx 6 pts

Stacey, You are a survivor. I know that it seems like a never ending battle.... You can do this though. I am fighting a similar fight, and even though I stay away as far as I can... my 9 year old son is still my ex's tool of contact and abuse. I am sorry that you both are experiencing this. Just remember that each day is one more day that he does not control you any more. Look at each moment that you see the wonderful person you are as a win on the battle for your freedom! Abusers tend to need a punching bag, someone to take out their own inadequacies on. You are not that punching bag and neither is your little girl. Keep fighting for her and yourself. You owe it to both of you to win this! I believe in you... ~huggles mouse~

Jackie

Wow, what an inspiring story!!!! How strong and amazing you are to have gotten yourself and your precious daughter out of that mess in the first place. And now, having looked up again and seen something you feel needs changing, you're digging in and doing the work that needs to be done. I know what that's like. It would be so easy to turn a blind eye and bury your head in the sand, but you're not doing that. You're facing what needs to be faced and not letting anything pull you off course. That shows incredible integrity and strength of character and I really, really admire you for it.

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Stacey, congratulations on all the great things you have done to stand up for yourself. And for knowing that addiction isn't the end of you. And for seeing how your daughter is the light that pulls you ahead. SO MANY WOMEN I've talked to have left their abuser because of their children, but often they wait until the children are old enough to say, "Mom, why are we still here?" You knew it was time to go. There is nothing shameful or sad about life roads that have led us down side paths and away from our true being; they're just sojurns toward our larger truth, right? And it sounds like you are standing and ready to receive the good truths of your life. So, onward! Step forward and find your peace! You deserve it. Especially because you know what you have given up to claim it!