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tal where I passed out oh back then you didnt want a penolsiling shot had two my mom thought I had sex with someone dirty even thow I did second time I was seeing a guy I was late for work went to his dad asked him if he could tack me to work he did it was when they had little gas he told his wife he was taking a sald of shot gun to his friend me being stupid I went he said he had to get gas first got on the wrong exit I was scared I told him to stop the car and let me out he wouldnt he also had a wire string with him that should of told me but it didn't he sped up the car I knew I had to do something I told to stop the car or I was going to jump he just looked at me told him again to stop the car well it was do or die so I jump my puresd was caught in the back sit so he druged me at 70 miles per hour it finaly came losse or he pushed it out at me lucy there wasn a van with two pepole they stopped thew where in shoked as I was he took off after they stopped they wanted to take me to the hospital I told them no my mom was pregnent white my 9th sister told them to take me to work I was a shamed for getting in his car and jumpinng out doingt that speed on the express way my left leg was bleeding bad could't stop the bleeding I knew I wasn't going home like that so I kept quite about it went to my cousin house he took away the pain by getting me drunk and took me in oh the pain was hard he had so was keeping it from my mom he took my dignity pain abusse ect' I was home at dark four so long I'm 55 yrs old and can still tell you word four word that day I was viulatede almost raped and killed if the Lord would'nt of saved me to this day I need suport can any body help me I'm also go to aa meetings now and I proteteked my Two adult children they both know aa sayes one day at a time ss so long
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I'm really sorry you've had to struggle so hard. Remember, though, that anyone who doesn't value you on a deep enough level to enter a committed relationship, is not worth a commitment from you. It must be hard to live with someone you aren't passionate about. But I promise you, it would be much harder to live with someone who isn't passionate about YOU. I applaud your ability to recognize where you are, and still keep dealing with it.
You are NOT alone. there are those of us here who would be honored to hold your hand when you're afraid.
Congratulations on getting as far as you have, and for being an inspiration of success and survival. You can do anything!
Oh Trixie! My heart aches for you. The past is just the past. Don't be too hard on yourself for the decisions you made then. For one, we can't see the consequences of our choices until after we have made them. And two, beating yourself up won't change it. Look forward and see what choices you can make from that angle.
Ditto - you did what you needed to do to survive. Cut your past self some slack. You've been strong for a long time. Ask for help in a safe place. Courage is not a lack of fear - it is doing it anyway. Take care of you.
I agree with Jan. You did the best you could. You overcame a lot of challenges, and came through them trying to have a 'normal' life. What a shame you had to go through all that. Only you know how bad it was to live with him, only you know why you made the decisions you did. It's too bad so many were made in fear, because those often don't 'sit' very well. Please keep up your courage and I truly hope you can find some peace.
What a remarkable story of survival! I can indentify with so much of your story! We may not always make the best decisions in life but you haven't given up. That's the wonderful part of your story. You are still going, still picking yourself up, still improving! You shouldn't hold a grudge against the person you were in the past. Just keep looking forward! Prayers and thoughts of strength for your!
There is a saying in recovery. You are not at fault for where you are, but it is your responsibility to deal with it.
Please don't judge the girl you were in the past too harshly -- she was doing the best she knew how, with the tools available to her at the time. Love her and accept her, warts and all, 'bad' choices and all, baggage and all. The past is the past. Even yesterday is the past.
But look at the strength you have. You know it's there -- it's what got that girl through unspeakable horror. If you choose, you *can* use that strength to starting being the woman you want to be. You've taken a huge step in reaching out to a community that wants nothing more to support you and give you what you need to be your full self.
I pray that you let that step be a beginning. Because you can, if you choose it. A beginning of what, you may not know for a long time.
All blessings and strength to you.